Suicide Workshop at work today and I have a question for you based on it (possibly morbid)

maratea

I think while I was in high school, one kid committed suicide and I think there were a few attempts. I didn't know of anyone cut, but I'm sure it happened.

When I was a freshman in college, my BFF's dad (basically my second dad) killed himself. It was horrible and just seeing the pain of the family was unbearable. I think that, in part, kept me from ever actually acting on my suicidal thoughts. I couldn't stand the idea of my family hurting like that.

whitsy

When everything was going on with my husband about a year or so back, I thought about it. I wasn't prepared to go through a divorce, I didn't want the shame of a divorce so soon after marriage, and I was so miserable I would cry myself to sleep nightly. The clearest memory I have of suicide is sitting in my mom's car as a passenger and just idly wondering how much it would hurt if I just rolled out of the car, and if it would kill me. But I couldn't have done it, especially right there with my mom. I knew it wasn't a real solution to my problem.

whitsy

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[QUOTE]In Response to Re: Suicide Workshop at work today and I have a question for you based on it (possibly morbid) : I'm glad things are going better for you guys then Whit. Enjoy your vacation- I for one, am jealous of your cruise :)
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Thanks sweets :) We are definitely in a much better position than we were about a year and a half ago!

katiewhompus

When I was in high school and some of college I had almost constant suicidal thoughts and several near attempts (I would plan the whole thing out but then could not execute, blade to the wrist but couldn't cut kind of thing).

I truthfully thought that I was a waste of air, that there was no point in living, that my existence in the world was something that would never be missed, etc. In college the only thing that kept me going, as stupid as it sounds now, was that I didn't have anyone who I trusted enough to look after my cat if I was gone.

I used writing as my therapy and wrote some dark things. Most of what I produced from 16-20 were my plans for how I could die, manifested with characters so that I could continue on for another day.

It is something that is very hard to see from the outside looking in. Even looking back now it's hard to understand just how dark of a place I was in, and how utterly pointless breathing could be considered.

azdancer8

When I was 16, I came really close to suicide. My mother had (still has) a chronic illness and depression, my father was never home, and I was basically raising all 3 of my younger siblings. One night when my parents were gone, the 2 middle siblings were fighting with me, and I just got so overwhelmed with everything. I ended up in the bathroom with a knife to my wrist. It wasn't planned, it just kind of happened. Fortunately I was clear-headed enough to realize how much my baby sister needed me (she was 5 then) and I couldn't stand the thought of leaving her. I ended up in counseling for a while, and it's still a painful memory, but I haven't had any suicidal thoughts since.

azdancer8

It's so sad when kids are not taught coping skills to deal with frustration and depression. Children should not be turning into bullies and committing suicide - and it's starting at such young ages!

When I was teaching, one of my students was hospitalized after a suicide attempt. In third grade.
I also knew of a 5th grader who committed suicide my first year of teaching (not my class).

ricksang

Aww im glad you didnt! You are lovely!

Blueyed228

You people better cut this shiit with this talk about wanting to kill yourselves.  Ill be super pissed if you do.

jne20

I work at a suicide hotline.

Most people who call are in terrible, terrible pain.  They can't think of any other way out.  They feel hopeless and helpless.  Which I think is why it's so easy for people who *aren't* depressed to judge those who are suicidal - it's a completely different state of mind.  Almost like how when you first fall in love with someone.... you see the whole world in a different way.  All your choices are made differently, even the ones that seem (on the surface) to have nothing to do with the guy.  And nobody else "gets it".