Happy Weekend!

anna.oskar

So i'm counting down the hours until the weekend officially starts. (as soon as I finish a last paper for a final)  Any big plans?  Goals to share?  Victories?  Defeats?

I'm starting the Bridal Bootcamp dvds on Monday, so i'll have a review for everyone in a week.  My weight is creeping but as long as it's still creeping down... who am I to complain?  i have been super busy/unmotivated to workout so hopefully school ending will get me back on track.

I'm dealing with officially coming to grips with the fact that I must have a problem.  i posted a before-after 50 lbs loss pic to some FB friends and they all went batty over how obvious my weight loss is. The word "amazing" was used a few times. But  I still don't see it.  At all.  Stupid body dysmorphia.  i know I've done pretty well but I just would like to see it once when I look in a mirror.

firsttimersluck

Whaaaat show us the before/after pic!!!!  ) 

Eh.. No goals.. We have massages this weekend that I DESPERATELY need. I can just feel all the tension in my shoulders weighing me down. 

Tomorrow is the launch of all the new BodyStep, Pump, Flow stuff.. so I'm excited to go to that, but not excited to go at 8am on my Saturday lol. 

anna.oskar

firstrimers: you've got a pm

I don't know why, but massages make me more tense.  i've never been big on people touching me and massages (although I have tried them) hold no appeal

lls31

I have to confess that I've been slacking lately.  Work has me very stressed and burnt out and I haven't been working out (or eating very healthy) for the past 2 weeks.  By the time I get home from work, I'm exhausted.  Earlier this week, I got home, sat on the couch, and fell asleep.  I never even ate dinner.  I need a vacation badly, just to refresh myself.  Unfortunately, all of my vacation days are needed for our wedding/honeymoon.

I HAVE to get back into the groove on Monday.  Sucks, because I'm going to end up sore and miserable, but I know it's worth it.

heyjude23

I am getting so antsy for the weekend. I'm going to a good friend's wedding tomorrow (I talked a little in the accountability thread about how it will be like I'm attending my own). It'll be neat to see how everything flows from a guest perspective. 

Anna, we've talked a little about the body dysmorphia before, but I'll say it again: I totally hear ya. Family and friends tell me I look great, but I really need to concentrate on myself to notice the difference. 

And kind of an embarrassing confession: last weekend, FI took me shopping for my birthday since I no longer fit into most of my wardrobe. I kept grabbing 8' anf 10's (and thinking maybe I'll still need a 12) off the racks and FI kept telling me to grab a smaller size. So I humored him and tried on dresses in a size 6. They all fit. I almost started crying in the dressing room. I've never been smaller than an 8 in my adult life. 

maribeth721

I wanna see pics too!!! I have the same issues! I can't see the loss when I look in the mirror. I sometimes do notice it in pictures though. Is that what body dysmorphia is?

So my goal this week was just not to gain weight. FI and I go out to eat once a month, maybe. We both love to cook so this is not a big deal. Also, I hate going out to eat because I never know exactly what's in the food, how it's made, etc. They could throw a stick of butter in my dish and I'd never know. Well after tonight will be the THIRD time I've eaten out this week. Not by choice. I had a work dinner and a work luncheon this week. FI wants to celebrate a quarterly bonus he got tonight, which is why we are going out. I've been slightly freaking out about that. I know I won't put on like 10 lbs or anything, but I've been making a lot of progress again and I don't want to mess it up. My defeat with this, was I did order a pasta dish on Wednesday night. It was pretty light, but who knows what was in the sauce. I try to avoice white pasta usually also. Ah well

My victory however is that I bought a pair of size 6 pants!!! Really, I haven't been that size since I was maybe 19. I think I am probably only a size 6 at this particular store (The Limited) because I think there stuff runs a little big. But it felt really good   This means I am very close to my goal!

BTW Anna, I was reading your blog. Your post, "everyone I know lied to me." SO true. Now that I have lost weight it's basically come out that everyone I knew thought I really needed to lose weight but were always telling me I looked great. Ah!

This weekend we have nothing to do and I couldn't be happier. The past few weekends have been crazy. So we are going to do some shopping and just relax because the weather is supposed to be really nice here.

firsttimersluck

Um... Yeah. Anna, you really do look amazing. 

There is an OBVIOUS drastic difference... You just don't see it because you aren't a size 00 victoria secret model (nor do I hope you will ever become that thin.. eek.. lol) 

You aren't at your goal, so you don't see it. I have heard that's VERY common. It's also hard to see because you know your body better than anyone.. You constantly look at yourself, so the drastic change came slowly in your head. One of these days you'll look in the mirror and say, "oh crap I'm hott!"   

Lobsters25

I want to see that pic Anna!  I understand the feeling on massages, until I got my last good one.  Sucking up my poor esteem about my physical shape for the massage actually really helped me become more confident with my body and body image in the end.  I still get a little antsy about them, but once I'm laying down, it all goes away. 

Jude, I know what you mean with grabbing the wrong size!  Sometimes I'll be sorting through the rack looking for my size, and completely bypass my current number (6 in dress, 8 in jeans), looking for something bigger.  And major congrats on the size 6 (and what a great birthday present!!!)

I am SO ready for the weekend.  This has been a terribly long week, between my friend's engagement, my other friend getting upset over an eval at work, the multiple vet trips, and FI spending some money we didn't need to be spending right now.  My coworkers were joking today that they should tell FI to run now because I've been on such a high-strung rampage this week.

So, my goal for the weekend is to relax.  It won't matter how I'm eating or working out if I can't ditch the stress.  And I'm really excited to see my old college roommate this weekend, so I want to be able to enjoy that time.

heyjude23

Wow, Anna, I can definitely see the difference, you look amazing!  All your hard work and progress is inspiring.

maribeth721

Wow Anna! The difference is definitely noticeable!! You should be so proud of yourself. 50 lbs is no joke girl! You look great!

Lobsters25

Anna, what a difference, and yes, you look amazing!  My favorite thing about it, though, is the fact that you look like you're smiling just a little bit more in the latter picture - which should say everything in itself!

lls31

In Response to <a href="http://forums.theknot.com/Sites/theknot/Pages/Main.aspx/wedding-boards_getting-shape_happy-weekend?plckFindPostKey=Cat:Wedding%20BoardsForum:238Discussion:e8609ec6-6b6f-4b83-83b2-c2f2981e46e4Post:1735e9ff-822b-42b1-b6ab-56aa0bf57986">Re: Happy Weekend!</a>:
[QUOTE]Alright.  But only for a little while  I am NOT secure enough to be all "look at me"
Posted by anna.oskar[/QUOTE]

<div>I totally see a difference.  You look great!</div>

anna.oskar

Thanks ladies!  I'm hoping to see it soon myself.  I do see the proof though.  Much smaller pants don't lie  

I think I'm going to post the pic on my blog.  once I get the guts up to do it.

firsttimersluck

You should, Anna. It's not about guts. You are on a lifelong fitness and health journey that MAN people aren't on because "I don't have the time", "I am a working mom", "I don't like veggies" etc. That's nothing to be ashamed of. And it might hold you even more accountable because people wan tto keep seeing your before/after pics as you are going through this journey. 

Pretty awesome.  

I used to hate massages.. I don't like people touching my back/shoulders because I'm not a super touchy person (besides my H) and I build up my stress tension there. Then i realized as much as I hate it DURING, it's amazing AFTER. haha

Lobster it definitely sounds like you need a "you" weekend to relax and decompress I agree... It's amazing how gym/eating won't do crap if you are under too much stress in life. 

anna.oskar

Blog post published.

Firsttimer: It's about guts for me.  I had a blog a few years ago and some chicks decided to rip me apart pretty mercilessly for whatever content I put in there.  It's hard to stay strong when there are are awful bitches in the world who obviously have nothing better to do than make other people feel bad.

lls31

In Response to <a href="http://forums.theknot.com/Sites/theknot/Pages/Main.aspx/wedding-boards_getting-shape_happy-weekend?plckFindPostKey=Cat:Wedding%20BoardsForum:238Discussion:e8609ec6-6b6f-4b83-83b2-c2f2981e46e4Post:8a196730-a576-4975-8900-2afd8b7b898f">Re: Happy Weekend!</a>:
[QUOTE]Blog post published. Firsttimer: It's about guts for me.  <strong>I had a blog a few years ago and some chicks decided to rip me apart pretty mercilessly for whatever content I put in there.</strong>  It's hard to stay strong when there are are awful bitches in the world who obviously have nothing better to do than make other people feel bad.
Posted by anna.oskar[/QUOTE]

<div>Anna, that's awful!  I'm so sorry that you experienced this.  There are too many mean people in this world.  </div><div>
</div><div>I'm glad you decided to post your photo.  I think it's truly inspirational!</div>

heyjude23

In Response to <a href="http://forums.theknot.com/Sites/theknot/Pages/Main.aspx/wedding-boards_getting-shape_happy-weekend?plckFindPostKey=Cat:Wedding%20BoardsForum:238Discussion:e8609ec6-6b6f-4b83-83b2-c2f2981e46e4Post:8a196730-a576-4975-8900-2afd8b7b898f">Re: Happy Weekend!</a>:
[QUOTE]Blog post published. Firsttimer: It's about guts for me.  I had a blog a few years ago and some chicks decided to rip me apart pretty mercilessly for whatever content I put in there.  It's hard to stay strong when there are are awful bitches in the world who obviously have nothing better to do than make other people feel bad.
Posted by anna.oskar[/QUOTE]

<div>Efff them. Wow. </div><div>
</div><div>I know you've inspired a ton of posters on this board, so those other peolpe can just go eff off and keep on living horrendously. </div>

firsttimersluck

Wow... I will never understand why women feel the need to tear each other down.. We have enough d-bag men in the world for that.. We don't need it from our own gender-kind.. I'm sorry Anna  

Lobsters25

That's terrible, Anna, I'm sorry you went through that.  I always try to remember that I'm going to have a much easier time changing what's on the outside than they'll ever have changing what's on the inside. 
And lls is right, you're inspiring so many more people, who significantly outnumber the few haters out there.  I never had the guts to share my before and afters ('durings?'), so my hat is off to you!

Sarah5200

Happy weekend all!

Anna - you look great! I checked out your pictures on your blog That's a huge difference, especially in your face and tummy! You are my motivation today! And don't let the b!tches get you down - as we say in grade one, they are bucket dippers - people trying to fill their own buckets by taking from yours, only to eventually realize that you can only fill your own by filling others' - it's cheesy, but a true fact of life!

anna.oskar

Thanks ladies!

I'm pretty proud of myself for finally figuring out what works for me to lose weight

J&K10910

Anna, you know how I feel about your photos, and it makes me so sad that you don't what I see.  I want you to see it and feel it because they really are amazing.  I think you're beautiful inside and out

Guys...we have Run For Your Lives in less than a month, and I couldn't run a 5K right now if someone was chasing me (which someone will be).  Also I rolled my ankle yesterday and did something to my foot.  I'm a fitness disaster.

lopezeli

In Response to <a href="http://forums.theknot.com/Sites/theknot/Pages/Main.aspx/wedding-boards_getting-shape_happy-weekend?plckFindPostKey=Cat:Wedding BoardsForum:238Discussion:e8609ec6-6b6f-4b83-83b2-c2f2981e46e4Post:8a196730-a576-4975-8900-2afd8b7b898f">Re: Happy Weekend!</a>:
[QUOTE]Blog post published. Firsttimer: It's about guts for me.  I had a blog a few years ago and some chicks decided to rip me apart pretty mercilessly for whatever content I put in there.  It's hard to stay strong when there are are awful bitches in the world who obviously have nothing better to do than make other people feel bad.


WOW!!! You look amazing!!!! Keep up the strong work!

anna.oskar

Thanks Lopez!

entropicbeauty

Anna - wowzers! That is amazing! Your face looks so slim and you look overall FIT! Consider yourself an inspiration for another person!