I'm not having a big fancy (or even big informal) wedding so I haven't been doing much of the planning you gals have. But I've been married before and I've been divorced and all the feelings are starting. It's nearly march and then soon I'll be getting married. I ADORE my fiance and think he's a much 'better' person in many ways than I am (at least more stable and unconditionally loving and kind). I'm more of a recurring explosion of awesome that sometimes can be a bit overwhelming to myself and others.
I'm having fears that I'll make all the same mistakes and it'll be just like before and I'll feel stuck and unhappy and incapable of being happy. Intellectually this is ridiculous, but the waves are coming more and more often as April approaches. If I didn't think we could succeed, and THRIVE, as a married couple I wouldn't be doing this, but I know the reality of the days, weeks, months, and years after "I Do" that most of these boards don't.
Just needed to share with people who might get it. I've read the sticky threads on this board and they help...temporarily! :-) Thanks for listening.