I am the Maid of Honor for my cousins wedding. For a long time, she said that if she ever got married, I was automatically the Maid of Honor. At first I was okay, but now I am not sure if I even want to be in the wedding. I would still help her with planning the wedding and getting the venues together and whatever else she would need help with, but being in the actual wedding, I'm not so sure if I want to be bothered. Am I wrong for not wanting to be in the wedding or should I just suck it up and keep going?