at what point does the chase end in a relationship? when you no longer feel the need to do the things just to make the other person smile? when bikes and boats become more important than your fiance and child?
seems like ever since i said "yes" that certain thrill flew out of the window. with all of the stress going on with his new job and pulling in 120 hours plus in one week, the worries about raising noah and making sure we're doing the best we can we seemed to have lost the couple that we used to be.
it's no longer wedding bells and family it became horsepower and freedom. i understand that we are both still young and he wants to enjoy his time while he still can, but at whos cost? he's still a father and a partner. maybe it's just me and i expect too much from him? but in the sae breath if i expect too much and aren't getting the results that i want, does that mean that im just settling?
dont get me wrong, i love him with everthing that i have and i will always be here for him regardless. ive giving up alot for him and in return he has helpedme thru some tough times but i dont know how much more my hopes can take when there always let down.
this was supposed to be a happy time for us and it seems like i have to beg for his attention anymore and no matter what i say he considers it as nagging and it pushes him away more.
its almost as if im not even there when he walks thru the door after work.
im just really hurt and confused about this whole situation. the only thing left for me to do is back off completely and hope he realizes what hes doing before its too late. my first thought would be to leave as fast as i could in any other situation but with a child i feel the need to work things out but i cant do so if hes not willing.
has anyone else gone thru this and could give me some advice?