I am so annoyed right now...FI does not understand that our wedding is for us......
every time I try to plan something for us, he makes it about our guest...I keep explaining to him that it isn't about our guest and it is a day for us and those who want to be there will find a way. He says I am making it impossible for our guest and if they travel all that way for us they should have everything the way they want it even if we don't like it....that upset me that he believes that I should put our guest before us on our special day...like if the guest don't like jazz music, we need to play music they will dance to so we can't play what we want to hear...(he loves drum & bass...I was looking for D&B love songs to mix into our play list but I know since his family doesn't like it...he wouldn't want me to)...I was under the impression that it was our speical day and the people who came would be happy for us and just for one day would tolerate what we wanted...
.I've done it at several weddings....I enjoy myself because it was all about the bride and groom so even if they didn't have a vegetarian meal option I still went and I enjoyed my time there and didn't complain or feel like the wedding lacked something because the bride and groom didn't go out of their way to pay extra money for a special meal just for me and 3 other non-meat eaters...so I get sad when he takes little things that reflect us away from me just because he thinks his family will feel uncomfortable or his friends are poor so that they won't be able to come even though my family is just like his friends...many of them have money problems and are usually broke more than they are not...but they would still find a way to show up to my wedding...I keep telling him if our friends and family have a problem with our wedding than that is very selfish of them to treat our special day that way...
We don't have that much money ourselves to spend on a wedding and I don't want to spend a lot of a wedding even if we could.....so one reason for having a destination wedding is to make all guest to travel to cut down on the guest list a little. My family all I had to do was tell them the date and location...they don't bother me but I know they all will find a way to be there if they want to make it and for those who don't I know it isn't on purpose but things happen that you can't control..... his family knows about the date and location and so do some of his friends and they all expect me to find plane tickets and hotels deals for them because he keeps telling them I will and that I am good at that. Now I did do room blocks at two different hotels to make it easy on people but I think it is very selfish of some of his friends and his family to think that it is my job to not only invite them to the wedding but to find them plane tickets for cheap and to find them cheaper hotel rooms than the ones I found because they don't like the price of the hotel I found.... and he acts like I should give them a complete list of activites they can do while there??? I get so upset that he can't see that it is not our jobs to get people to come to our wedding...inviting them should be enough and if they want to be there they would find a way...they would have started saving money back in feb 2010 and if they put away 20 dollars a paycheck....they would have half the money they needed now...more than half...
I feel like I am the bad guy because he keeps wanting me on top of finding the caterer, booking the reception and ceremony site to also personally find a way for every single guest he really wants to be there be able to come. for me the only people I care about being there beside me and him is my mom & dad, his mom and dad, his brother and my sisters and brothers and my grandparents...I feel like everyone else is on their own and I am not responsible for them coming or not...my aunites, cousin and friends...I invited them but I can't look out for them and hold their hand while trying to plan...I just wish he would see that I can't do the same with his family or friends either....so stressful...I just had to vent...if you made it this far thanks for listening...