So I know as a Christian I am supposed to be full of hope, and trusting God that things will work for the best. And I am, and I do. But I struggle a little with it when I look around at the state of our nation.
I work for a small medical practice. The doctors make so little overhead that they don't take paychecks home half the time. Their malpractice insurance still goes up every year, and rising expenses still have to be paid. But with Obamacare, I've read that Medicare won't be paying out as much. Most of our patients are on Medicare. So we will bring in less income and have higher bills to pay. How is a small business supposed to survive?
My brother won't even talk to me because we disagree politically. Seriously?!? I haven't spoken to him in a year and a half - and his reasoning is that he would rather ignore me than engage in a debate. It hurts. Is it just the entitlement of the younger generation? Or are people really that close-minded these days.
People on welfare make more than DH and I do combined. But we feel it is our responsibility to work for our living and to cherish the things that we have and that God has provided. But it still sucks knowing that I can't have a cool new phone or that awesome toy I want whenever I feel like it because we are trying to make ends meet on our own. I guess I shouldn't complain because God has been so generous, and provided us the means to be building a house, but there are days I just wish finances were easier.
I don't know, I feel like I've become more cynical lately, and I don't like it. It just seems like society and our country and world are headed the wrong direction. Sure, I have things here that I love and look forward to, but I long for the day when Jesus comes to take us back home.
Aaaand that turned totally into a ramble. I have no idea if any of it made sense, but I wanted to get it out there. Anyone else feel this internal struggle when you look around?