Two more...

kellya01

... Days of Torture.  In my job.  It gets worse every day.  I won't describe what happened today but let's just say that school behaviors and expectations are lowering across the whole school, and it's making my life miserable.  (As if the school standards weren't low enough already). 

For the positive: only 2 days left with students, and my hope is that we won't have very many coming to school.  Realizing they'll be here for the free babysitting, I'm not looking forward to it at all.  The principal told me today that he's thinking about adding me as the second band director (which is actually my area of expertise, I'm doing chorus because I love it and that's where the job is) ... but I don't think I could stay at this school if my life depended on it.  My life feels threatened every single day.  "That white lady' is "strict" and "you do somethin' wrong and you written up."  Well, good.  HA. :-)

In other news, I found a few more job openings and have put in for them.  I guess my prayer is always the same right now ... for God to show me where the open door is so that I can go through it. 

FaithCaitlin

Praying for you, girlie!! 2 more days 2 more days!

LittleBigO

It's good you're looking at the positive!!  Prayers are coming your way. 

mrandmrsbrist

The more you talk about your school the more it reminds me of where I went to middle school. Sorry it's not getting better, but hey, at least it's almost over!!

StacyJenniges

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[QUOTE]... Days of Torture.  In my job.  It gets worse every day.  I won't describe what happened today but let's just say that school behaviors and expectations are lowering across the whole school, and it's making my life miserable.  (As if the school standards weren't low enough already).  For the positive: only 2 days left with students, and my hope is that we won't have very many coming to school.  Realizing they'll be here for the free babysitting, I'm not looking forward to it at all.  The principal told me today that he's thinking about adding me as the second band director (which is actually my area of expertise, I'm doing chorus because I love it and that's where the job is) ... but I don't think I could stay at this school if my life depended on it.  My life feels threatened every single day.  "That white lady' is "strict" and "you do somethin' wrong and you written up."  Well, good.  HA. :-) In other news, I found a few more job openings and have put in for them.  I guess my prayer is always the same right now ... for God to show me where the open door is so that I can go through it. 
Posted by kellya01[/QUOTE]

That's good that you only have two more days left of the students being there.  I am going to pray that you find a different position for next school year. That is not good that you are working in a school where you feel like your life is threatened.  That's not a good place to be.  Prayers sent that God will send you a position in a school that you feel safe at.  You deserve it.

sessionswedding

Still praying for you!  I am personally excited about the end of school, and I'm not even there!  Lol.

kellya01

Having a really bad morning thus far. 

I have my bridal portrait on Saturday, and I'm trying to stay positive and keep that in my mind, but it's hard.  I can't eat anything (it won't stay down), I feel just awful, my body is rebelling against me, and I am SO done with this school.  DONE.  Finito, about to walk out the door, done. 

I'm sorry to be so needy with this and I'm sorry to sound like such a whiner / complainer.  It's just bad.  I am not going to post any specific details, but I definitely need God to speak to me right now and just comfort me in the way that only He can. 

sessionswedding

Hey, I can understand your upset state.  It's OK to need us when you need us!  I am praying for you to make it through the next couple days and then GET A BETTER JOB!  I really hope things work out for you, and I hope you get beautiful bridal portraits!  Which I demand to see, btw.  Keep us updated!

sprtychick10

Hope it all ends well and a new door is opened for you. Praying for you!!

kellya01

Aw you ladies are SO wonderful on this board!

This too shall pass... what lies next, I'm still not sure, but I have lots of applications out there hoping for a response!!!!