For several years now - I have had terrible self esteem, probably since college started. I thought this would go away when I got engaged but it sorta just stayed the same. It's like, my brain knows that I have a lot to be thankful for about myself, but everytime I look in the mirror I find something to criticize, something to dislike, and something to compare with others.
Lately - my lack of self esteem is the thing I don't like about myself (irony for ya). Has anyone struggled with this? How have you dealt with it over time or overcome it? I have tried desperately to not let it affect my relationship with FI, because I know he loves me and the way I look so much, but yet it's not enough for me in my own head. I don't know how to battle this, and I hate it. I hear the words "You are so beautiful" a lot from him, my parents, and my friends.. and I wish I believed it in my heart too!