I was raised Catholic, my entire family is still catholic, my fiance was raised in a Non-denomination Christian church, in which his father was the senior pastor. When we started dating I did not go to church with him. After we were a couple for 3 months I started to go to church with him on a regular basis. After we got engaged I started to become more involved in Church, teaching children's church, going to women's events, ecta. But there was one thing I hadn't done.......
I did not take communion at church, for those of you who don't know catholics only take communion in a catholic church. So I was holding off on taking communion until we were married and making that statement then that I was leaving the catholic church.
I have many insecurities and it can be an issue in our relationship from time to time. I realized that the big reason I did not make this communion step was because those insecurities were telling me what will you do if he leaves you. These insecuritiesI have are irrational, ones that I pray about letting go. I know they stem from many bad relationships in the past.
This past week my fiance and I had put an offer on a house in which we are praying that we will get. This act in and of itself shows how irrational my insecurities are. I realized that I need to let these go I am holding on to them and I know that is not what God wants me to do. I realized that I was only not taking communion because of these insecurities.
Today I let it all go, and I made that statement I took communion with my fiance. Something he has wanted to share with me, but would never push me into. I have never had such a intimate experience taking communion as I did today. It was a very freeing experience one that I know I will not regret.