i've always wanted to be a mother. i went through a phase in high school where I decided I didn't want kids of my own, but I wanted to adopt. I met my fiance in college and realized I do want children of my own. It's something my fiance and i have talked about and we decided we'd like to have kids a few years after we are married because we want to enjoy our time alone but together. In January my I felt my cousins baby kick inside her and realized I want that so badly.
I know being parents is hard and time consuming, but my longing for a baby keeps growing. A couple ladies at my office recently had babies and I feel such joy seeing them but also an ache for one of my own.
I have no idea why I feel this way and I'm scared that I may not be able to have children. There is really no reason for that fear becuase, as far as I know, i'm healthy and capable.
I still want to wait a few years after I'm married to start TTC because I want to enjoy my husband without distractions. Plus, i want to work a lot so I can save enough that I don't have to work once we have kids.
has anybody else experienced feelings similar to this?