I don't know what to do

agape1cor813

I just don't know ...

amongthelilies25

a b o u t ? ?

agape1cor813

See my previous post about fiance not getting a job.

amongthelilies25

I say this as a loving sister in Christ....but no one is justified in giving up hope. 

If there is only ONE thing we can hold on to..it is hope. You should read Job. Hope is all over it. Job lost his hope after losing everything. EVERYTHING! not just a job. He lost his children, his wife, his livestock, and his crops - all in the matter of minutes pretty much!

Uh...uh i cannot even imagine! 

Numerous times Job talks about his temporary loss of hope and grieving (Job 6:11 "What strength should i have, that i should hope? And what is my end, that i should prolong my life?"  Job 7:6 "My days are swifter than a weaver's shuttle, and spend without hope."  Job 17:15 Where then is my hope? As for my hope, who can see it?" ). But in all of his loss, Job didn't blame God. (Job 1:22 In all this Job did not sin nor charge God.) 

Job was getting not the greatest advice from ppl in his life saying that God was punishing him and crazy stuff like that. 

God then talks to Job and in the end of the conversation Job discovers that believers don't ALWAYS know what God is EXACTLY doing in their lives but we just hold on to faith and hope. 

At the end of the story...God then blesses Job with TWICE as much as he had before the trials began! 

I know at times it feels like we are down and out...and completely hopeless! But Poroverbs 13:12 tells us that "Hope deferred makes the heart SICK, but when the desire comes, it is the tree of life."

i encourage you to stay on the verse. Put it in your cell phone, in your car, on your mirror - just in places that you can read it. Because....when that desire does come...you can praise God in it. 

You have a God who ADORES you and wants to best for you. But you have to trust him. 

Someone once told me this...and it really helped me in a hard time. I was unemployed for almost a year with little money coming in and lots and lots of debt! She explained to me that when a little girl is going on a trip, her good father will give her the ticket just in time to make her flight. He doesnt give it to her later..... and she misses her flight, nor does he give it to her early in fear of losing it or ruining it. A good father will give it to her right before she boards. 

Its not always OUR timing...but HIS. at times we may feel that He is a little slow on His game - but in reality - His timing is perfect. 

FaithCaitlin

Monica's response is amazing. I ditto everything she said. I know it's hard but again, you aren't alone! We are in your shoes too. It's awful but we are trying to hold onto hope. In addition to scripture, the very cliche saying "God won't give you more than you can handle" has been comforting. Don't give up hope. Pray! God knows your needs. On his time, he will take care of you. In the mean time, we are here to uplift you! If you ever want to chat, PM me! Our situation is similar- I'm not working (in school and I have applied for so many part time jobs and haven't heard from any) and my FI is working a part time retail job looking for a teaching position. He makes about $300 a week! I'm so sorry you're in this place but don't give up and don't forget you're not alone- you have God and so many people are stuck in the same situation.

FaithCaitlin

Just wanted to add: I'll be praying for you!

kellya01

I also love Monica's response (amongthelilies) and wholeheartedly support / agree with that! 

What I've had to do during this time of being in a job that I absolutely loathe (it's a really BAD school in a really BAD school district and in my music classroom I've had to insititute what we call "martial law" in my classroom which is if you even think about doing something against the rules, it is a discipline referral ... the kids are much better than they used to be but still pretty much horrible and NO ONE passed their practice tests for the EOG, oh, and there are a LOT of teachers who don't even have teaching licenses because the school system can't pay people with credentials enough $ to want to teach there, and our teach-for-america teachers leave every single year it's so bad).   Anyway... what I do is every day I remember something positive about why I have the job, in a city that I never wanted to be in, and what I can get out of it, and why God has me there.  It's like my own personal "Ninevah" like the Jonah in the belly of the whale story.  I have met some children that really need me, as a mentor, as a teacher, as someone to protect them from the bullies, and someone to listen to them when they have problems like thinking that they might be pregnant!  It's a tough world for these kids, and I do everything I can to soften it without letting anyone walk over me.

Anyway, I don't share that to brag.  In fact, it's really the opposite.  I am there, didn't want to be there, but God was leading me there for the last 3.5 months of the school year.  I sincerely hope that God opens other doors for me to change schools this summer, and I pray with specificity for what I have realized will make me and my future-DH happy, and God hasn't shown me the answer yet, but I stay faithful in my Hope that God WILL provide. 

I'll keep praying for you, and just remember, we're here if you need to find perspective, deal with things going on, vent, or even just ask for song recommendations to help you get through the day!

If you have access to youtube where you are, try searching for Twila Paris "God Is In Control" and let the message of that song soak into you.  It's AMAZING!! :-)