After church today, an admistrator from my grade school who attends the same church found me to let me know that the music job is open next year. It's my DREAM job. I adore this school and everything it stands for. It's where I got my start in music, and I've known I've always wanted to work there! It's my favorite age group, and the job would be better for my hearing (I've unfortunately aquired noticeable hearing loss with my current job and need to find something easier on my ears)
But I can't apply. I'm leaving my current job at the end of the school year because I'm moving an hour away in another time zone, and I just can't handle that distance every day, especially on the rural roads. Plus, our goal was to hopefully go into grad school in the fall of 2012, and that's not really fair to the school or the kids to be there for just one year.
I'm SO bummed right now, like REALLY bummed. I know I'm supposed to marry FI and move in with him, and I know another opportunity will open up, but this is the SEOND time this job has opened up and I haven't been able to apply (I was going into my senior year of college when it was open the last time). I'm not second guessing marrying FI or anything, but if I wasn't marrying FI, I would definitely consider putting off grad school for this job. It's amazing how your life goals change when you get engaged...
I know God will provide and work everything out, but sometime I get so frustrated becaue it feels like he keeps teasing me dangling this thing that I want so badly! Anyone ever feel like that?Ugh, so frustrated and bummed right now......
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"And now you stand before me today, and with all my heart I say, that you are God's miracle to me."
June 18th, 2011
