I have come to decide that I no longer want the whole big wedding. FI's mom is about to make me crazy, everything I do, say, or even think is wrong. I'm tired of her and her negativity. She constantly makes me feel like I'm a bad person and I am far from it. I get nasty facebook messages from her, and when I reply it gets better for awhile...but today it got to the point where FI was even very upset with her because she was talking bad about me to him. I really wish all of this would just stop...I have never given her a reason to not like me. I just needed a quick place to vent, I'm not really sure what we will decide to do. If I had my way we would get married just the two of us, and then go ahead with the reception and stuff this summer but we would remember the real wedding as just the two of us. It's the marriage that matters, not the wedding, and I don't want the day we become husband and wife to be remembered with drama. I want to remember it as him and I happy and in love, and able to get through anything together. OK i feel a little bit better now.
