Yesterday, fi asked me if we could have twice as many guests as we had originally planned for and started listing a bunch of people to invite that I had never met. They were mostly his mother's friends. I hate having to say things like "We can't afford to have them," but sometimes I feel like I'm the only one of us who lives in the real world. And the truth is, even if we could afford to have these people there, I wouldn't want them there. I only want people there who genuinely care about us as a couple. I see my vows as very personal and I would feel shy saying them in front of people beyond my close friends. I feel like a jerk for saying no to him, but he can't offer me any valid reasons for why he wants these guests there other than to keep his mother company. And that's nice but his mother isn't paying a dime of the wedding costs. Actually, so far, the only person paying for things is me. And what I want to do is elope!!! Fi's job is commission based and these "huge sales" that he thinks are done deals keep falling through. So right now, it looks like I will be paying for the entire wedding. And eloping looks even more tempting by the moment. Did anybody else feel the urge to run away and just ditch the wedding plans?