I came home from Bermuda with bronchitis. which how now turned into an ear infection as well. my head is in excruciating pain.
my exbf and i are still friends. we were together for 7 years. i love him dearly, and he is a great guy. i left him because our relationshihp wasnt going anywhere, and we just werent meant to be. i broke his heart. when I left him, within 4 weeks he broke his leg, got sick, and lost his job. he was a business consultant for a very large company. he was an economic casualty. he still hasnt found another job, and his medical insurance runs out tomorrow. i wish i knew how to help him. i wish i could. it breaks my heart.
St. patricks day i found out my BFF of 5 years was a pathological liar with deep psych issues and our entire friendship was a lie. a friend of mine was a shoulder to cry on, i was crushed and betrayed. she listened. took my side, and was appalled at everything that happened. "i never really hung out with jane doe, but i def wont now. i cant believe she did xyz, and blah blah blah" I just saw them out to lunch together. what!
I have to work sat night, mischief night, in a really dangerous city. its a big gang initiation night. and im scheduled to work with a partner i dont know, who has a less then stellar reputation, with a new equipment configuration. that night has disaster written all over it. i want to call out, but i need the money, but i dont want to get in a bad situation because of no mojo between my partner and me.
imso overwhelmed right now. i want to crawl up in a hole. sigh.