I've been laying in bed for the past 45 minutes after being woken up from a wedding nightmare. It's still really early here. Especially being a Saturday. Drew's sound a sleep and I don't want to wake him. Remember how I told you all about the latest with Drew's mom? And how we tried to compromise and told her she could give us a list of some additional family of her's distant cousins and close friends we'd already invited over 10 of her friends to the AHR? When Drew told her this he happened to mention that we had 20 invitations left. His mom said she had no where near that many ppl to invite. Yeah, right. He had asked her to get us those addresses right away since we'd already sent out the other save the dates months ago. Of course, she's been dragging her feet with them. Because that's what she does. Drew emailed her letting her know again we needed those addresses as soon as possible and to email them to me. Last night she calls saying she has too many to email and we have to go to his parents house and pick them up. What?She has too many to email? Are you kidding me? Too many to email? What is too many to email? This was left on Drew's voicemail since we were eating dinner when she called. I call her bluff on there being too many to email and figure she's planning the "I'm helpless and can't do anything on my own" stance she always plays to get ppl to help her. Like her refusal to learn how to attach a picture to an email so she can call Drew or his brother to come over and do it for her. Drew calls her back after we get home and finds out she's has a list of 19 addresses. Again, are you kidding me? What happened to family and close friends only? Since when is the neighbor who lives down the street who you never do anything this a close friend? Oh and you want the invitation to include their children and grand children? Of course that's not too many to email. She just doesn't want to do it. She tells Drew she wants when to come pick them up tomorrow now today when we are out and about. Even though she knows we are leaving early this morning for Seattle and that we are never "out and about" near their house. Drew tells her we won't be picking them up from her and if she doesn't want to email them then she can bring them over herself and leave them inside the screen door. He also reminds her that a list of 19 more invitations is not just family and close friends. Especially when you consider how many family and her friends we already invited. So early this morning I have this nightmare of our house being filled with all of these ppl we don't know. You can barely move. There's not enough food or drink. Ppl don't have anywhere to sit. All of these strange faces just keep getting closer and closer to us. I can't get out of this huge mass of strangers. I'm getting pushed down to the ground and they are all getting closer and closer. Then I wake up. I'm so glad we are having a DW. I'm so glad we don't have to have all of these additional ppl we don't know or love or care about at our wedding. However, they are now all being forced on us for the AHR. The AHR has now become everything we were scared the wedding would become if we got married at home. We wanted a small AHR to celebrate with close friends and family. Not whatever this has become. I'm so frustrated right now. And overwhelmed. And not even wanting to do an AHR anymore.