So, not sure if anyone else is really in the same boat, so I wanted to share something that's been driving me nuts lately. The past month or so I have started to get really emotional about a few friends that aren't coming to the wedding, who I feel should be there... or, to be fair, we'll say who I REALLY want there, and would definitely be at theirs. I have TWO girls who would have been in my bridal party (if I was having one) that aren't even coming. My grandmother who lives here in Tampa isn't coming. It's soooo upsetting! And, when I first started this whole process I completely had to attitude of - We are having a DW and I know it might be inconvenient for you - if you can come, awesome, if not, I completely understand. Well, here I am one week out, and I don't completely understand! It's in the same state, and you've known about it for a year ... you really couldn't have planned it out better. I hate sooo much that I feel this way. I don't even want to talk to some of these friends before the wedding b/c I'm scared it'll make me sad.
( I would never not be friends with them anymore or even act upset towards them, and I'm REALLY trying to be understanding and cool about it. But, my feelings are soooo hurt! My FI had a much better turn out than me, and his people all traveled from WAAYY further!
My hope is that, on the day, I won't be remotely thinking about the people I'm missing! I'm just kinda bummed right now... shedding a tear as I type! UGH... this wedding has me all sorts of emotional! I have never been like his before!
Thanks for listening... or reading!! You totally deserve a cocktail if you made it through all this!
