My photographe finally got all of my proofs loaded online last night.
I stayed up way too late checking all of them out. They are beautiful! Now I need to sort through and pick out the ones I want in a book and in a calendar for the FI.
I just wanted to tell everyone that it was an amazing experience. I think every woman should do it for themselves. Yes I did it for my FI but in the process it helped me to really accept my body. I'm not skinny and I've got curves. There are a lot of days where I see/feel like I'm still really heavy. I've lost about 75 pounds in the last three years and while I can see it visually in the mirror and in my clothes, I don't always feel like I've lost the weight. This really did help me to see that I'm beautiful even with my hips and such. In some of the pictures I was immediately noticing my hips or other "flaws" but when I stopped to really look I saw me and I like what I see.
* I know this might not be for everyone. I just wanted to let others know that if you aren't doing it because of what you feel your body image is, please reconsider. I know there are many who don't want to do it just out of privacy reasons.