About a month ago my aunt gave me a necklace that has been in our family for many years. It belonged to my great aunt, and when she passed away it was given to my aunt. She has no girls. She decided to give the necklace to me. My dad and I drove to visit her while she was on vacation in Tampa. She explained to me that it was her intent to put the necklace on me on my wedding day, but she was giving me the necklace now. I was pretty confused by this, as I didn't see why she wouldn't just keep it and put it on me the day of, and also because to the best of my knowledge I don't believe she recieved the necklace on her wedding day. A couple of times she had mentioned that she thought she might not make it to my wedding day. She had some heart problems that I don't believe were very life threatening, but even worse, she was always very very depressed. I never put two and two together. Looking back now I feel like I should have seen it coming.. Saturday night my aunt took her own life. I'm obviously hurt because she is gone, but I realize that she was in a great deal of mental and physical anguish and this is what she wanted to do and I respect that. Now I'm at a total loss as to what to do with the necklace. A little background on it: My great aunt had a gold coin that I believe she carried with her always. She had no children. My great uncle had the coin placed into a pendent, and onto a necklace. Later there were 4 diamonds added signifying my father, his two brothers, and my aunt.
I want to wear the necklace. It sounds stupid but it makes me feel closer to her. I don't know if I should wait until my wedding day to wear it, but if I did, who would put it on me? It's something my dad could do, but as much as I love him I would just feel totally jipped that my aunt couldn't do it. She did say that she wanted to put it on me on that day, but I have a feeling she knew that her plans were to not be living on that day. I'm just so lost. Do I wear it now? Do I wait? I don't know. My grandmother passed away in 2006, so it's not an option for her to put in on me either. What should I do??
