I just have to get a few things off my chest so I can go back to studying. To understand my frustration you have to know Brad is a conductor on the CSX railroad and is home every third day. With that said here is my problem. We have to attend two meetings with my Pastor before we can get married. By all fair rights, Pastor has been putting this off for months, and waits until I bring it up for the 30th time about 40 days before the wedding to acknowledge the fact this has to be done. Of course there is a lot of stuffing happening at the church and mine and Brad's schedules are conflicting more days than not. So on Sunday I compared schedules and showed Brad the days we could do these two meetings. He hits me with, I want to go to TN with my brothers and I need to change my work schedule to avoid taking too many days off. I said that was fine but I needed to know when he was going to change his schedule and if he was going to be deer hunting this Saturday(opening day in KY), b/c I needed to give Pastor a few days we could meet. When I asked are these three days okay, he pushed the calendar away telling me to just tell him what to do. This is not at all what I want. So pastor if open to day at 3pm, I called Brad last night while he was in Corbin waiting to get called to work, to tell him we were schedule for today at 3pm, he said something I couldn't hear. When I asked if that was okay, he didn't yell but I could tell he was frustrated about not being called yet. I quickly said I love you and I will talk to you tomorrow and got off the phone. I am not sure why he is digging his feet into the ground on this. He has made a comment asking the type of questions he will be asked. His parents never attended church and he has only been with me twice in the seven years we have been together, Pastor doesn't remember meeting him. Everytime he is home on a Sunday, he either gets home early in the morning (3am) and is sleeping or he has to go to work early in the afternoon and needs his sleep to stay up all night. I understand how demanding his job is and how important it is to be awake on a train. So I understand not wanting to trade sleep for church. I am wondering if he is afraid Pastor is going to ask him why he doesn't come to church with me and if he plans to attend church went we have a family. So here it is, noon, and I have no idea if he is home or not, if he is awake of not and if he is going to be moody today and we have to be at the church at 3pm. The best part is I have to take my board exam on Friday, I don't need this drama before my big test! Am I wrong for feeling an little bit upset with him for doing this to me the week of an exam that determines my job title which increases my salary and provides a better life for the two of us, am I??? Sorry for this being so long, My mother only wants to point out the bad in the situation and I needed to get it off my mind so I can study the next couple of hours. ThanksAmanda