So my family is in shambles right now...
My cousin's wife is basically dying. She has malignant liver cancer and is having very bad reactions to the chemo she was started on. She was only given a 30% chance to begin with... so it's not looking good at all. Obvioulsy because of this, they won't be coming to the wedding, which of course i understand. My cousin's mother probably won't come either because she says she can't handle any social situations. This i also understand. As for the other cousin and his wife, i have no idea at this point because they aren't responding to any calls or emails.
The whole situation makes me feel terrible... On the other hand, this is still my wedding and I deserve a little bit of happiness. Having said that, I need to know if they're coming for sure or not at some point. I have to make a seating chart and rearrange the seating completely if they're not. Call me crazy, but i don't need my wedding day being chaos when everyone gets there.
There are other issues on top of this but are much smaller in comparison.
I feel terrible for what is going on, but this is arguably going to be the most important day of mine and FHs life, and i think we are allowed to be a tiny bit selfish.
This isn't even the wedding that we wanted. The only reason there are going to be so many people and all the aunts and uncles and cousins are invited is because my mom wanted it that way, and she is paying. We wanted something very small, in vegas, with just a dinner at a nice restaurant after. It's too late to change any of this now, and we have accepted that. I'm also happy that i will be with my family on this day since i now live very far away.
I'm just so exhausted with dealing with all of this. Last week I wanted to throw in the towel and cancel the whole thing... but too much money has already been spent. I'm just so over it all...