Plus Size Life

mymissingpuzzlepiece

I only became plus sized about 2 years ago. Before that I was in the best shape I could be in. I feel like life was different then. I was dating a lot, I got a lot of attention for my looks and I was definitely free-spirited. Now, I have my FI and we couldn't be more in love and I am happy but that liittle fire inside me, is a little dwindled. 

I'm not sure why that is. I feel like I have to hold back more... like I can't do the things I used to be able to do because I'm plus sized. It isn't because of my size.. it is like a mental block. 

Do any of you other plus sized ladies ever feel this way? Were you thin before you became plus sized or were you always this way?

Thanks for reading

LuckyGirl1713

you shouldn't let anything stop you from doing the things that you love unless it will somehow be a danger to your health.  i know having a different body then you are use to is a big change, but you shouldn't let it get you down.  i have been plus sized since i was a teenager and yes there were times when i had moments of doubt but i never let it stop me from doing anything.  i don't like living with regret and it will just eat away at you if you don't let go and be yourself.

i know this sounds kinda like an after school special or lifetime movie or something but it is the truth.  you never know until you try.  and good luck and congratulations!

Amt2109

I was a skinny runt of a kid. My family all got on to me about it. Told me I ate like a bird (my dad dished up huge meals, like 4 fish fingers each plus a large lump of mashed potato and half a plate of baked beans...). They bugged me so much that by the time I was 11, I was 9 stone (126lb). I wanted to remain at that weight, but I slowly got bigger.

When I was 16, after a long struggle with my doctor, I was finally put on the pill to help my cramps. I gained four stone in two years (nearly 60lbs).

When I moved out of home when I was 22, everyone got worried about me straight away. I ate what I wanted to, half my plate was vegetables. I dropped 30lbs in a couple months but I felt better than I had in a while.

These days, I can go to the gym religiously (and I was. I went last year, 6 months, an hour a day, four days a week). Lost not a pound. Because these days, I physically cannot eat more than 1200 calories... I feel sick and full... and I need more than that if I'm ever going to shift this remaining weight. I really think I need some sort of therapy/nutritionists help because I think the can't eat more thing is psychological.

I feel horrible the way I am. I don't like me in the wedding pics (though I like the pics and think the pics of the two of us are cute) but feel at a loss to do anything about it.

bruna29

I grew up fairly skinny. As a high school freshman, I was a size 12-14 (which is average, I would say). My dad died when I was 13, so that was really hard to deal with, and I know I became an emotional eater at that point. When I started undergrad I pretty much got bigger and bigger each year. 

Then I had some medical issues my sophomore year, and I actually lost close to 30 lbs during one semester because I was working out religiously (to me that's only about 3-4 times a week for about 40 minutes), and I really watched what I ate. Well, that summer I decided I hated counting calories and that I missed eating cake. I gaind all my weight back after that plus another 60 lbs. 

So now here I am. I don't really like I look; I'm not comfortable with my size at all. I'm getting tired of never finding nice clothes that fit. This semester (my final semester in grad school) I have already told myself I need to make some changes. Luckily my FI loves me just how I am and still thinks I'm beautiful, but I need to be more comfortable and confident with myself. In March I was recently diagnosed with a rare disease, and I know losing weight will help with the symptoms, but like I said above, I am an emotional eater, so it's been really difficult dealing with things lately. 

I'm sorry you're not happy with your size right now. It's really hard to lose weight; in fact, my doctor told me losing weight (and keeping it off) is one of the most difficult things to accomplish. I've been told over and over again losing weight and exercising is a lifestyle choice, so you shouldn't diet and instead change your lifestyle. I don't know if that's true, all I know is that I'm sick of feeling the way I am, and I'm going to change it. Better late than never. Don't let your weight/size hold you back from doing the things you like to do. Perhaps talking this out with some you love who will understand might help you overcome the "mental block".

RaptorSLH

I've always been wide.  I used to be tall, too, but I quit growing up right around the time that everyone else gets a growth spurt.  It runs in the family; my shape is/was shared by my grandmother, her mother, her mother's mother.  I'm rather like a hobbit - rather too fond of good food, and unlikely to grow any more, except perhaps sideways.

While being larger does bring some physical limitations, unless there are other health problems involved, you should be able to do most things you did before.  If this is something that worries you, talk to your doctor.  (S)he can help guide you as to what your body can handle, give you advice for reclaiming your previous weight, or refer you to a therepist if your weight has left you depressed.

mymissingpuzzlepiece

Thanks everyone for the nice comments and sharing your stories. It looks like I'm not the only one who is going through this. I don't hate my body right now, it is just looking back on the way I used to be and knowing that everyone in my family is quietly judging me... that's what gets me. 

When I as younger, I was in shape and over did it with working out and such. Now I went the opposite way and I'm trying to balance myself again. I am more confident than I was a year ago but I just have to work on being happy with myself the way I am now and not let it stop me from doing things I like to do. 

LuckyGirl1713

i know its very hard knowing that you are being judged by others, but the only opinion you should worry about is yours (and maybe your FI).  And truthfully if you are unhappy with yourself then nothing in life is going to be satisfying or fulfilling.  you have to come to terms with the way things are now and when that happens everything in life with come a little easier.  good luck :-)

jennipea382

I used to be pretty small in high school (115-120 at 5'4", size maybe 4 or 6). I pretty much stayed that way my first year and a half of college, then it all started packing on. I'm now a size 12. I don't actually consider myself plus size, but I feel like I relate with people on this board more than others, that's why I post here!

I've been trying to lose weight ever since I realized how much had packed on. I have such a hard time with it though. I try to watch what I eat and get some exercise in, but it's not always that easy. Just recently I've really been working on cutting out the junk and I've been pretty good about not drinking pop and drinking more water, but I know I need to do more than that. I also have a somewhat physical job so when I get home I don't really feel like working out. I need to get over that!

I know exactly how you're feeling. I also have a friend going through the same thing, so we've talked about it a little bit. It does suck to be happy with your looks and then one day you realize you're not. But I think it's helped me realize there is a LOT more to life than my looks. And it's not like being plus sized is a bad thing at all. I don't care so much about my pant or dress size as I do my actual shape. Like right now, I'll keep the hips but lose the tummy if I have to!

Anyways, I guess I don't really have advice but I know it helps me to hear other stories and know I'm not alone. Hope that helped a little!

Laffeytaffey

I can relate somewhat. At the beginning of high school I was wearing size 12 jeans. Now? I wear size 24!!! My FI is -really- attracted to BBWs and I worry that if by some miracle i DO lose a good amount of weight, if he'll be less attracted to me physically... I know he loves me very very much, but still. I like the idea of being able to wear size 16 jeans. I don't want to be super skinny or anything like that