I missed yesterday's C&V post... I've had so many wedding appointments in the last two days that time did not permit. This is also the first time I've had a chance to get online in the last two weeks because I've been working on two different shows and barely sleeping.
Anyhow, I had my first appointment with the tailors yesterday. Haven't tried my dress on since December (when it fit perfectly!), and I've been working out and trying to be really good ever since. Well, it was a bit tight yesterday
However, I'm not completely convinced that it fit much differently than in December only because I was expected to get into it BY MYSELF! Who the heck gets into a wedding dress by themselves? Seriously??? There's a lot of situating that needs to be done before the zipper and buttons are even attempted! I really wish my best friend had been there to put me in my dress as she has been before. She's got this technique, which seemed really silly at first, but now I realize just how necessary it is!
That, and everyone around me keeps telling me how great I look and seeing more results than I am from my workouts.... Unless they are all pulling my leg then the only thing I can think of is that my workouts have worked against me and built my back wider!!!
I'm freaking out a little! My dress is so perfect and I just want to look perfect in it! I'm so nervous that I'll look like a stuffed cow trying to fit into a dress that's too small.
I even bought new clothes last weekend and feel like I'm looking really good... but the stress of this wedding is really doing a number on me! If it's not my body that I'm stressing over, it's money. If it's not money it's vendors. If it's not vendors it's family. If it's not family it's back to money!!!
I really just can't wait to get this day over with... and I feel so guilty for even thinking that because it's taken so much time and money to put together that if I can't enjoy it then what's the point? My FI just keeps telling me to relax and not worry so much and that I will look beautiful no matter what. I know he's right but I can't stop worrying and the days are just flying by!
Thank you to anyone who actually read this. I think I just needed to get it out. Hopefully I can relax over the next few weeks so I'm not a complete basket case at the wedding.