I have been with my fiance for almost 9 years and we have been engaged
one year. I have waited for this for so long, and I am finally in the
thick of planning. I am on my hardcore diet and doing great, I have all
my vendors selected and my venue is working with me to ensure this
"perfect day".
I find every time I envision this day I start
crying. I am tearing up even writing this. I am an emotional person and
so scared I will not hold it together. Lost my mom young and plan to
have the officiant mention her as well. When I am working out to music I
envision my dancing, and how proud I will be of my hard work and also
that this is finally happening for me, etc, etc, it is annoying me how
often I find myself crying!
I keep hoping "it is 9 months away by
then I will have envisioned everything enough and be all cried out" and
hold it together for the pics and for everyone else. I want to be happy
but I don't want to be "crying happy" lol. Anyone else deal with this
emotional flood while planning? When you finally had the ceremony, were
you as bad as you thought?
*Edited* I am just so happy.... I was really embarrassed by the initial comments to this post but honestly I am not sad in any way I am just so happy
I think my wording was wrong initially but this is the best time of my life, and I am not worried about anything going wrong. I am just so happy that this is happening and I am getting to have a wedding that I want. I was surprised so many people assumed I need mental help, I guess it is possible and I will discuss that further with friends, but I am just an emotional wreck because I am thrilled - we did not start planning until recently (again, see above, been waiting almost ten years for this) and I thought others were so anticipating their wedding they would be misty eyed often throughout the process.... I am not full out bawling, just happy-crying a lot to myself. ... anyway whatever, i guess I am mental that is what I have gathered.... but since I couldn't delete it and start over, I added to it. Thanks for listening.