Its hard staying excited and motivated to have a wedding after losing my job. Yes, it somewhat has to do with money pressures now, but Im having a really hard time staying excited, moreso now because of my guest list.
Our plan was to have appx 45-50 people at the wedding. Of that, about 18 were friends / family and co-workers. My brother can't come because he and his wife are expecting (totally understandable). But after losing my job, my 3 co-workers have become extremely distant (almost shunning me) and are now making me question whether or not they were really friends to begin with. The one that hurts the most was my boss. The way she handled me losing my job has me feeling hurt and betrayed. Remember, she was the one that was going to perform my ceremony. So now, I think I am down 8 people on "my side" and now I have to find an officiant.
Im jumbling through so many mixed emotions I don't really know how to feel. I don't have a lot of friends here because I only moved here 5 years ago and what few friends I do/did have I met through work. Most of my family cannot / will not attend because Im too far away and this is not my first marriage. I just feel so depressed and I am having a hard time sorting through my emotions. I guess I just needed to vent.
May 2013 Brides Siggy Challenge January- Let Them Eat Cake!
My cake is a 2-tier ivory cake with silver dotted scallops, ribbon and pearl brooch.
