So much crap...should have eloped! And I'm such a worrier, I don't dare even post it all here because I'm scared that some friends/ family might lurk on here and see what I post! (Since I rant and rave about this board A LOT!).I will say as my stress for the day...I have my dress fitting today. We leave in 30 days, so this better go good. I've thought about getting a different dress too, because now I've found that white might have been better than ivory. And I've lost weight (which is good), but I worry that my dress is going to need a ton of things.BS ~ My own step-mom isn't coming because it falls on the season opener of the Colts game...so I understand about important people not coming (she's been with my dad since I was 5). And due to other wedding events (and the Colts game)...people are choosing not to attend the BS. I didn't even want one...but now I guess I don't have to worry about everyone getting along! Oh and since I was worried about people feeling uncomfortable, I offered to have my BS at my house (common-ground)...this is good and bad...and my fault for offering.BP ~ Don't want one, but MOH feels strongly about it. And a lot of people won't make it anyways...it's the same night as a concert that friends are attending...that I refuse to go to...I can't do country music. This isn't really a bad thing though, just indifferent.I'm finding out that this person doesn't want to see that person in Jamaica, so this should be fun! Some are staying at different resorts now and this is fine...it would just be nice if people would let me know. And it would have been nice to find out from our guests that they canceled this week since now we don't get "group wedding" benefits (at least my TA informed me). This is fine too...it's just helpful to know when we're trying to plan our wedding day.People contact TA for info, then book on their own. So now TA and I are trying to work together to figure out who's doing what...one reason I got a TA is so I wouldn't have to deal with this stuff...my TA is great and I feel sorry for her for having all of these loose-ends now.Had people make me feel guilty for "spending $1700 on a trip that they can't even afford." *YES*, got that sent to me in an email this week.And working on AHR centerpieces with my mom AGAIN today. I am so very not happy with them, we've been working on them for over a year...less-is-best (esp when on a budget!). I can't imagine spending more money on crap!FI calls and asks me if he can buy a go cart! Are you freakin' kidding me, dude??? WTF is he going to do with a go cart??? And he was worried about me spending $150 for a new wedding dress! At least he asked...Bottom line...WISH I HAD LISTENED TO FI AND ELOPED! Really, really I do!If anyone even read this...sorry for dumping on you...and if not at least I feel a bit better getting this stuff off of my chest! PSThis is what I have to say to friends & family who want to remind me that we're going to Jamaica during hurricane season, I FREAKIN' KNOW, I KNOW, I KNOW, I KNOW...:::whew:::