so i took a pregnancy test today just for the heck of it because i'm 2 days late i know i know 2 days is nothing but i did and i got 2 pink lines and took another one and got a plus sign.....now I should be excited....i have had to miscarriages in the past and me and my fiance were trying for about 2 years after that but we kinda have decided to put on the back burner and I started to take birth control again....oh yea did I mention its because we fianlly decided to tie the knot after 10 years and for the last 6 months have been planning our wedding which is this July 2010 so now you see why I not jumping for joy Im actually a little afraid I know I have to go throught the wedding well actually I want to.....but how can I walk down the isle with a 6 month belly........changing the date is out of the questions everything is booked and pretty much paid for....i would lose lots of money....i already bought my dress which will not work with a belly.....maybe I sound a little selfish about all this but y now y not in 3 months i can deal with being pregnant duing my wedding as long as not everyone could tell i guess i just need to vent and maybe I'm getting ahead of myself....i actually do have a dr appt this upcoming week which is routine but i will get a def answer then......... i'm just so confused my emothions are going in 2 completely different directions at the same time happy because i def want to be a mother and upset that the vision i hav had for my wedding the last 6 months is pretty much a bust never mind that I have worked my but off these past months to loose weight and get in shape.....to look my best that day.......