I went to see my Rheumatologist today for a follow-up on the bloodwork I had done last week; he was checking to see if my recent problems (constant low-grade fever, significant unexplained weightloss, hair loss, lower back pain, constant fatigue, etc.) were a thyroid problem. Luckily, the results came back negative--although one indicator was slightly lower than normal (if anything it would have suggested I should have been gaining weight, not losing). So, it's on to the next round of tests.Next Wednesday, I go in for a full-body CAT scan. They fear it may be lymphoma--and the CAT scan will indicate one way or another.I'm so out of sorts right now. I know it's just a possibility, but even the possibility is hard to hear. I just kept glancing at my blood work sheet/appointment sheet--seeing lymphoma/lukemia written next to my name was heart breaking for me.So, I'm sitting at work, completely lacking the ability to function...and I have a 5 hour class ahead of me tonight. I'm drained, and tired, and worried--and just need a hug.