Ugh...I don't even know where to start. A little background I guess:
First, BF and I have been LD for the past 5 months. We live 6 hours apart and are both full time students (he's in his 1st semester of grad school and I'm in my last semester of undergrad) so we only see each other once a month, usually for 3 or 4 days tops. We have less than 6 weeks to go before I move to Cambridge (he's in Boston) but we're both so incredibly sick of the distance.
On a more personal note, I've had depression/anxiety for a long time and have been on antidepressants for almost 2 years. I feel like my depression/anxiety is through the roof lately, and I'm not sure why. I'm also not sure where to go for help right now since I'll only be here for 3 weeks, then home for 3 weeks, then in Massachusetts. I've emailed my counselor at the college to try to get an appointment to talk about everything I'm dealing with and possibly changing/upping my medication.
Bleh.
I'm not really sure what I'm looking for...just support and maybe some advice from anyone who's had any sort of similar situations. PMs are welcome if you don't want to post here, you just have to help me open them up, ha!
And if the stormy weather came...I'd just kiss you in the rain...

Re: Vent/Any advice? Kinda long..
I would imagine the these HUGE changes are causing more imbalances then usual... Don't discount what a big deal this move is. So will you be together in 6 weeks? No more LD?
I think you're right, these are all going to be big changes - the stress of student teaching, graduating in 3 weeks, going home for the holidays and then moving. That's probably why I'm such a wreck. Also, I have a place to live once I'm there but no job so I have to find one ASAP which is sort of terrifying.
But yes, besides a couple of weeks when he's an hour away at home for break, no more long distance! It's a big step for our relationship and it's going to be so good, we're really excited.
ETA: Thanks desert, you always give great advice! BF's been really great but there's only so much he can do over skype, you know?
My roommate gave me some "calming vanilla" tea and some lavender spray for my anxiety tonight. She's great.
It sounds like you are already doing the things that I would have suggested (talking to your MD about upping your dose). PP offered some great suggestions in the meantime, though.
I would also guess that stress is behind the exacerbation in your symptoms. I know exactly how it feels, though, to know that you had things under control, and then all of a sudden, they're not anymore. It doesn't matter why, it still sucks.
I would also second the suggestion of exercise. I know it might be the last thing you feel like doing right now, but in my experience, it can do amazing things as far as your mood.
Again, I'm really sorry you're dealing with this. Feel free to PM me...I've been around the block with anti-depressants and anti-anxiety meds.
Honestly, my mood has been a downward slide for a couple months and I was ignoring it, hoping it would get better on its own, stupid.