I'm in a horrible mood and I feel like the biggest b*tch because of it. I guess I just need to get it off my chest to someone other than my roommate.
BF's grandfather died early yesterday morning - luckily BF was able to be there and see him the night before but he's a wreck, of course. All I want to do is be there with him. I was planning on going to go to CT on Saturday just for the day, bring them some food and be with BF. Well, BF talked to his grandma about it and she told him that she really appreciated me wanting to come but she would rather meet me for the first time under different circumstances. So I can't go.
I haven't seen BF since Tuesday morning and won't see him until this Tuesday, at the earliest. I want to be there with him and for him right now and I'm also feeling really butthurt like I'm being boxed out. I know I'm being selfish and a big baby - it's his grandma's decision, she just lost her husband - but I feel like it's really unfair to BF and it makes me feel like a cast off. It hurt my feelings. Wah, wah, wah.
I told BF that I was hurt last night, which he expected, and we talked about it but it's not really a situation that can be resolved. He wants me to be there but is just trying to respect his grandma. I'll just have to wait until he gets home Tuesday and be there for him then. I just miss him, we never got to have Valentines Day, I hate seeing him on Skype looking miserable and not being able to do anything about it.
I'm going to work with the kindergarteners in a minute which will take my mind off it and hopefully make me start acting like a grownup again. Feel free to flame or hopefully give me some words of wisdom to get over this.
And if the stormy weather came...I'd just kiss you in the rain...

Re: Flameworthy Vent
His grandma obviously just lost her husband, so of course she's sad and maybe not thinking about how her decisions affect others feelings, which while it sucks, is a little understandable. So I doubt she did this to push you out or make you feel excluded. Even more so, I think she just wants to save a happy moment, meeting her grandson's SO, for a happy occassion. This probably means that she's excited to meet you, and she doesn't want your first impression of her to be a sad one.
It still really sucks, and I'd feel upset to not be able to be there for H when he's sad too, but maybe to keep your mind off of it, you can plan a really special, belated Valentine's Day date when he gets back?
Still here and still fabulous!
I think I'd be pretty pissed too. Not pissed enough to do anything drastic, but annoyed. Oh, and I'd schedule a visit to go meet grandma in like a month so we don't get held up by anything else! I actually met a lot of BF's extended family for the first time by visiting him when he was in WV for a funeral (I was in PA at the time at school). I drove down after the funeral, so it wasn't that awkward, but it was neat because I got to kind of "meet" his uncle who died too (cause everyone was talking about how great he was!)
Maybe you could send flowers or a donation in memory of his gramps? It'd be a nice gesture, at least.
I think you're being an awesome girlfriend. Keep being awesome
I think I just needed to mope about it by myself a little and vent on here. It's still bothering me a little but I'm trying to put my big girl pants on and be understanding.