My FI is being so annoying lately! He is always such a positive person but lately he's constantly commenting how he hates his life and how life sucks. It really bothers me 1) because I've suffered from depression pretty much my whole life so it scares me a little when he talks like that and 2) because it makes me feel like I'm doing something wrong since I'm a huge part of his "life". I know he's been really bummed out since he hurt his back and had a crappy season throwing which led to not competing in the Olympic tryouts. I've tried talking to him and being supportive and I've been cutting him a lot of slack when he gets snappy with me (which usually doesn't happen, we hardly ever argue) but its frustrating that I can't do anything and just have to sit by and watch. Along with this whole life sucks thing, he now hates his job which he's been doing since he got out of college. I can understand being bored at work but he makes really really good money(pretty much doubles my salary) plus bonuses, has a company car and cell phone! I know a lot of people that would kill for his life. Now on top of all that he doesn't want to do any wedding planning. He wants me to sit down with his mom to go over the guest list and is constantly teasing me that he's not going to help pay for the wedding and won't talk about the budget. He's also changed his mind about having kids, he still wants them but not until after the Olympics in 2016, that will make me 38! I really don't want to wait that long for medical reasons and I don't want to be too old to enjoy them. My sister is 42 with a 3 year old and I see how tired she is all the time. I always said I would never get in the way of his goals but I think we can handle having a baby while he's training, we have a lot of family and I know they would help if we needed it.
Since we got home he's been working on getting his back better and he's feeling better, he also went on an interview for a new company, doing almost the same thing he's doing now but for more money which I don't think is going to help much but if that's what he wants then that's fine with me. Since we left for Oregon all he wants to do is drink which makes him think more about his life sucking more. I know its just a phase and I just have to wait it out but it's so frustrating to listen to him talk and act like this because he has been given so many opportunities in life and used every one to his advantage. He really doesn't know how it feels to struggle and have life really suck. I wish he would just snap out of it and focus on the good things in his life.
Sorry it's so long but I don't really have any one else to vent to and you all are always so supportive.