So I haven't even started writing this and I'm already emotional. I'm sure by now you know I'm a crier. :-) Nerves, pms and stress aren't helping much either.
None the less, the time has come for me to write this last post. I debated if I should or not because I really don't want to leave this board. So saying "last post" is kinda morbid in a way, but I digress.
Even though I've planned my wedding for the last 20+ years in my head and on paper (I have binders to proof it! lol), this last year of actual planning has been a rollercoaster ride. I wish I could have found this site and you girls WAY sooner than I did. The girls here have been an integral part of my sanity, the planning process and even everyday life.
You girls have let me vent from my mother issues to my marshmallow meltdowns! lol
Thank you for the constant support, the surprising friendships, the laughter, the tears and all the ideas.
For my own sanity I will not address each girl that has touched my heart in special ways. I cannot, simply because my head already hurts from crying. If I address you individually I'm gonna loose it.
Therefore, let me just say this... You girls are spectacular!!! I've had the incredible honor of meeting some of you in person, attend some of your weddings and amazingly consider you a friend. I say amazingly because I'm not a person to get close fast or make close friends easily. I've had the same circle of friends consisting of 3 girls almost all my life. So for me to consider you girls friends is a big step for me in opening up more to the world. I've been closed up for a long time. You girls have given me so much more than you realize... so much more than just wedding stuff or puppies and rainbows. As some might know, I live up here in the boonies and I don't know anyone up here. My family and friends are all down in Miami or elsewhere... and the beginning stages of this planning were kinda rough because of it. It sounds kinda silly to others outside of this board, but I'm so thankful and blessed to have found you ladies. THANK YOU!!! I am sure some of you will not be able to get rid of me for a long time to come. :-)
My advice to you girls at the starting point of this fun, crazy, manic, stressful, awesome time is simple. 1st - Breathe! Any time you feel the crazy starting... take a moment and breathe. 2nd - Do as much as you can, as early as you can. Trust me... this is important. You do not want to be extra stressed because of unfinished projects. And 3rdly, but most importantly remember why you are doing this. When family drama arises, when BM or FILs cause you unnecessary stress, remember that at the end of this long dark tunnel there is a light.. a bright one... your future husband waiting for you to be his wife, to start a new chapter in your lives from that moment on. It's not about the kind of food you'll have at the reception, what color the bridesmaids shoes are or even what kind of flowers. All that is icing on the cake.... wedding cake in this case. This wedding is about YOU and HIM! Not your mom's, not your sisters, not your bridesmaids or anyone else that wants to have a say, regardless if they are forking over money or not. If they want a say in the wedding planning, tell them to plan their own! This one is yours! Try not to let the selfishness of others ruin this wonderful time for you. Many have tried and at times I have let them, but I realize now that I was wrong in allowing them to dictate what should be and letting them get to me.
In 4 days many years of planning will come to fruition. I pray that everyone is healthy enough to make it to the wedding, I pray that the weather continues to be my friend and stays beautiful (just in case... please send me many good weather vibes for this weekend, but especially SUNDAY!), I pray that the glitches are minor and insignificant. I pray that my period behaves and decides to hold off a few more days or come TODAY so that I can be less bloated by Sunday. I pray that these stress things (pimples, swollen lip and stomach issues) go away. And ultimately I pray that as of Sunday 5ish, I am a happy, beautiful bride standing next to Alex (trying not to cry my eyes out) saying I DO for the rest our lives.
I wish you girls lots of happiness in your planning and infinite happiness in your marriage!
Congrats to you all. Thank you again for EVERYTHING you girls have given me in these last few months.
See ya all next week!!