About a year ago I changed my lifestyle. I have been eating healthy, exercising, maintaining a postive attitude. I started smoking cigarettes after not having one for two years. I had a weak moment at girls night a couple weeks ago. I started back with I'll just have one when I drink, now I am smoking all the time. My mom died at age 46 from cancer. My husband won't kiss me because I stink. I am so ashamed of myself. Now I'm using the excuse that I don't want to gain any weight from quitting. My husband comes right back with you can fix fat, you can't fix cancer. I need a good kick in theass.