I'm just kinda bummed.
My brother and sister in law apparently ruined the suprise of my bridal shower, by telling me that they're coming from out of state, and that they mailed me gifts already and not to open them til this weekend at the shower. So apparently their visit was my big suprise.
The host ended up spilling the rest, since the big suprise was gone, and cuz i mentioned going to a welcome home party for my friend who just got back from living in Korea that is the same time as the planned Bridal Shower...so obviously I can't go. She also said that my two bridesmaids can't make it. I said "thats ok, my other friends so and so will be there". Apparently, all my friends were not invited, except for two people I don't even really like. None of my fiance and I's mutual friends got invited either.
Even though it's my side of the family that planned it, there are a ton of people I don't know all from his side of the family. He won't be there, or anyone from his family I even know like my FMIL. I just feel like its going to be awkward, especially without a buffer (ie his mom). I don't even really like a lot of attention on myself. Our families are also so different, I don't know how they are all going to get along without offending each other. So I'm kind of dreading this now. I get anxious really easily, and so having the suprise ruined kind of killed it. Now I just feel anxious, and depressed that my best friends won't be there and I can't celebrate my other friend's return (I haven't seen her in 3 years!). I understand, but I miss my friends so much.
I just really wish people hadn't ruined the suprise. It took the fun out of it. And now I'm scared of meeting all these new people. I'm just bummed.
I also had a crappy week at work so far...especially getting injured at work, but not enough to get light duty or get to stay home with worker's comp. No, just enough to be in pain and irritated and bruised up the wazoo (perfect for all those pictures people will want to take...)
On the plus side, I get to see my 7 month old nephew since my brother and sister-in-law are coming to visit. I guess that's the only plus to this week.
Sorry for the rant, but I just had to tell someone. I didn't feel comfortable spilling it to my friends (cuz they weren't invited), or my best friends (cuz they can't come due to their own issues), or the host. I just didn't want to make people feel bad. But I'm just really upset right now.
I just wanted to go to the homecoming party. She's only in town for a few days. :-( If I hadn't mentioned it, then the shower really would have sucked cuz I wouldn't have been there!