Don't get me wrong, I'm super excited that I'm going to get to see him every day now. Before our relationship has been very long distance and I see him twice a week on a good week. Recently, it's been about twice a month (for a few hours each time).
Since we're going to live here after the wedding, FI wanted to get a job here. But I can barely afford my rent -- much less 2 rents! I also haven't been able to find anything that he didn't have to sign a 12 month lease for. Since it's only for 5 weeks,
I figured it would be okay for us to live together and him sleep on the couch every night. I strongly dislike it when people live together before marriage -- especially if they have no plans to get married any time soon. So far, we are both still virgins. A few times, things have gotten a little out of hand, but we've never went anywhere close to "all the way." If we see each other every day, the temptations will be much greater than when we only saw each other twice a month. However, maybe before, because we only saw each other a few times a month, when we were together, we did things that we wouldn't do if we saw each other every day. You know what I mean -- it's exciting to see FI for the first time in 3 weeks!! After seeing him every day for 3 weeks, will I still feel excited to see him?
We've prayed about his housing situation for several months. We'll still be praying about it and hope that something else becomes available even after he moves in (he can always just take a few pair of clothes and spend the night elsewhere)
He'll be here with his stuff Saturday afternoon. I know this is not what God wants, but I don't know what it is that he does want. Maybe I'm just creating more problems for myself. Making myself sick wondering what people will think of us knowing what we're doing is wrong, and yet still doing it.