As my wedding is getting closer, I seem to be often reminded of some of the pain I dealt with in my first marriage. My ex was unfaithful on a large scale (think Tiger Woods... a self-proclaimed sex addict who DIDN'T choose to change or seek help) and I dealt with a lot of betrayal and manipulation over six years.
After my divorce, I went through a complete rebuilding of my life... my mind and emotions. It was a while before I felt ready to date again. After I knew I was ready to start dating, I began dating a guy and after a few months, started seeing some of the red flags that I had in my marriage. I ended that relationship.
FI is completely different. We've had disagreements/fights, but there haven't been ANY red flags and he's never given me any reason at all to believe that he'd ever be unfaithful. I've learned to trust my gut, because my gut was always right with my ex. My counselor told me that women have intuition for a reason and I've learned how to listen to mine. I don't have any qualms or concerns about marrying FI. I trust him completely and I know I want to spend the rest of my life with him.
But, lately, I've been having nightmares about my past... my mind has even wandered during the day to those old feelings of betrayal and hurt.
Is this normal with 2nd marriages? Is anyone else experiencing this?
I'm so excited to be just over 2 months away from marrying the man I always dreamed of, but came to believe was just a fairy tale... it's almost reality and these nightmares are messing up this time of "bliss"!