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August 2012 Weddings
Busy weekend and now a sad day..... LONG
So this weekend was a busy one for FI and I!! We had a wedding Saturday (drove 3.5 hours down there, and attempted to drive back the same night). It was downpouring and we started to hydroplane so we stopped and spent the night at his Dad's house (over halfway, but we couldn't go any farther). The next morning we got up and got to my parents house in time to get rushed by my sister to get to the church for my bridal shower.
Had an amazing time at the bridal shower, got a little overwhelmed (lots of people there, and I was running on 3 hours of sleep) but had an amazing time!! My sister made me blush bright red with her gift (she got me teddy night gowns, which wouldn't have been so bad but FI's grandma and great grandma were there)... My family is so amazing though, they honestly went above and beyond with everything!!
Today was a very sad day for me.. To give you some background story, I struggle with separation anxiety (have since I was a little girl). I think it comes from being the youngest and always watching my siblings leave (my brothers are both significantly older than me, 13 and 16 years older I believe, my sister is 6 years older, but she came home often when she left), but I am really bad with goodbyes (I used to hide my Dad's shoes when he worked where he had to be away for a week, I was 1). Last summer I was living with my sister and brother-in-law being a 24/7 nanny/nurse for my nephew (I lived in VA, my home state is obvoiusly MN and that's where FI lived). When I got back (the day before FI proposed), we decided we would do our best to never live apart again (it was horrible for my separation anxiety, very hard to be that far away from most of my family, even with family it was very difficult, especially at night).
Well, I have been struggling to find a job, and my cousin offered me a position being a 24/7 live in companion/nurse for my Great Aunt. I accepted the position because I love my Aunt, need to be doing something, and know I can do this job. The down side, FI and I will have to be apart again (1.5 hours apart, which isn't so bad but we won't see each other now until mid-June- unless FI surprises me by coming to visit). I'm going to be with my parents for a few days before I move in with my Aunt, and today my FI left to go back to our home. I cried on his shoulder when he was leaving, continued to cry after he was gone, and I'll admit it I am crying as I write this post. I love my FI and I know I can trust him 100% (otherwise I wouldn't be able to marry him), but it is really hard to be away from him, even if it is to be with family. I will have some time off this summer (every few weeks), which will be spent with my FI for sure, but all the goodbyes are going to really stress me out. My Aunt isn't comfortable having FI spend the night (FI and I totally understand and are ok with that), so if he does want to visit he can only be there during the day and has to spend nights at my parents house.
I'll probably get better over the next few days, but today was just a really hard day because it was the day he left. I wish I didn't have the anxiety, like all day today I was just anxious and ironically was trying to distance myself from FI (then regretted it at the end because I lost precious moments with him).
Thanks ladies for listening, I just needed to write this out, it helped being able to write it out. I may sound kind of wimpy (most people say I am for crying when I leave family), but it is a part of me that I'm just trying to deal with.
Had an amazing time at the bridal shower, got a little overwhelmed (lots of people there, and I was running on 3 hours of sleep) but had an amazing time!! My sister made me blush bright red with her gift (she got me teddy night gowns, which wouldn't have been so bad but FI's grandma and great grandma were there)... My family is so amazing though, they honestly went above and beyond with everything!!
Today was a very sad day for me.. To give you some background story, I struggle with separation anxiety (have since I was a little girl). I think it comes from being the youngest and always watching my siblings leave (my brothers are both significantly older than me, 13 and 16 years older I believe, my sister is 6 years older, but she came home often when she left), but I am really bad with goodbyes (I used to hide my Dad's shoes when he worked where he had to be away for a week, I was 1). Last summer I was living with my sister and brother-in-law being a 24/7 nanny/nurse for my nephew (I lived in VA, my home state is obvoiusly MN and that's where FI lived). When I got back (the day before FI proposed), we decided we would do our best to never live apart again (it was horrible for my separation anxiety, very hard to be that far away from most of my family, even with family it was very difficult, especially at night).
Well, I have been struggling to find a job, and my cousin offered me a position being a 24/7 live in companion/nurse for my Great Aunt. I accepted the position because I love my Aunt, need to be doing something, and know I can do this job. The down side, FI and I will have to be apart again (1.5 hours apart, which isn't so bad but we won't see each other now until mid-June- unless FI surprises me by coming to visit). I'm going to be with my parents for a few days before I move in with my Aunt, and today my FI left to go back to our home. I cried on his shoulder when he was leaving, continued to cry after he was gone, and I'll admit it I am crying as I write this post. I love my FI and I know I can trust him 100% (otherwise I wouldn't be able to marry him), but it is really hard to be away from him, even if it is to be with family. I will have some time off this summer (every few weeks), which will be spent with my FI for sure, but all the goodbyes are going to really stress me out. My Aunt isn't comfortable having FI spend the night (FI and I totally understand and are ok with that), so if he does want to visit he can only be there during the day and has to spend nights at my parents house.
I'll probably get better over the next few days, but today was just a really hard day because it was the day he left. I wish I didn't have the anxiety, like all day today I was just anxious and ironically was trying to distance myself from FI (then regretted it at the end because I lost precious moments with him).
Thanks ladies for listening, I just needed to write this out, it helped being able to write it out. I may sound kind of wimpy (most people say I am for crying when I leave family), but it is a part of me that I'm just trying to deal with.
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Re: Busy weekend and now a sad day..... LONG
August 2012 - Married!
I wish you the best of luck with your FI and the new job. I'd go crazy having to be separated from my FI for that long
It might be totally worth the time and gas $ (if you both have cars) to plan to meet for dinner once every 4-5 days or so - sounds like it would only be 45 minutes each if you met halfway. Just having those few days to get through without him with a clear date in mind when you will see him may help a bit.
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I am adjusting well for the most part, FI and I talk every night (and occasionally text during the day) and he told me he plans to come visit next weekend (my job requires me to be here pretty much 24/7 so going to visit him on the weekends won't work unless my cousins come stay with my Aunt). I will have the weekend after that off so I'll go visit him