My brain is fried. I put $400 dollars down (non-refundable) on this beautiful reception venue and then I got to thinking .. that's not where I want my reception. This is how I always pictured my reception: evening, dark, smooth jazz music playing, romantic setting, dimly lit with candles as everyone eats their food. And then it of course switches to being fun and upbeat once everyone stops eating and the dancing starts (my favorite part).
I fear this place will make it feel so much less formal. Like a picnic. I have looked at pictures that were taken at other weddings there and I cringe .. yes, it's beautiful! But just not me! (and my fiance doesn't really have a preference, so it's all one me). We have to end the reception at 9:30. It will have just gotten dark (I live on the east coast) at this time. My venue is on a lake and it prides itself on having tons of windows so you can see the lake. I just made the decision to book there WAY too quickly so I feel obligated to have my reception there. I just don't see how it's possible to have this romantic/jazz/candle-lit reception when it's super bright. There are so many windows that it'd be really difficult to cover them all .. and with what?
I don't know what I'm asking .. I'm just really bummed about this and needed to vent. Help me find my sanity?