This semester is incredibly stressful for me. I'm taking my exams in March, finishing my thesis, presenting at two conferences, and creating an entire course from scratch for my directed study. Essentially I just have a lot going on and on top of everything else I need to do this semester, I also need to start applying for jobs. I've been updating my resume and cover letter as well as looking for various places to apply to. I'm going to a workshop this week on how to get adjunct teaching positions and another workshop next week on resume and cover letters. After those workshops my plan in to apply to as many jobs as I can and hopefully have an job offer before graduating or shortly after graduating.
My mom keeps sending me job postings and it's stressing me out even more! I don't have a good relationship with my mom. She is an extremely controlling person and has never listened to me about what I want or been supportive of my dreams/goals in life. So of course these job postings are nothing I would ever be interested in (some of them require entirely different degrees than the one I'm getting). Today she sent me two INTERNSHIP positions...unpaid. I'm sorry but I'm getting a fucking master's degree. I have experience teaching, which is what I want to do. I'm not going to do an unpaid internship that won't even give me experience in what I want to do. All these e-mails do is remind me that in a couple months I won't have a job anymore which is a fucking terrifying fact I am well aware of and make me think I won't find a job doing what I want to.
I know I'm irrationally upset by the e-mails and should just delete them and move on but with everything else I'm stressed about it's really getting to me even though I'm trying hard not to let it.