Update: We got married

kms6169 · June 2014

LAM, I am so sorry for your loss. You are already an amazing wife to your new husband and it's obvious that you will be as time goes on. God was with you on your wedding day and will continue to be. Congratulations on your marriage and I hope you and your husband find peace in this terrible loss.

NYCBruin · June 2014

I have nothing to add other than I'm so sorry for your and your husband's loss. Internet hugs to you

WildMagelet · June 2014

Thank you for the update. I've found myself keying into google to try and see if she'd been found every couple of days and wondered how you and your husband were doing.

I'm so sorry for your loss. I cannot begin to fathom what you and your husband are presently going through. He is blessed to have you.

I love the photo you shared. I hope it can continue to bring you comfort.

kbsmom1 · June 2014

So sorry for your loss.

OnionBreath · June 2014

I am so sorry for your loss, you and your family are in my prayers.

Rosebubbly · June 2014

Praying for you, your husband and family right now.

ashley8918 · June 2014

I was so hoping not to get an update like this. I'm terribly sorry. And you look absolutely beautiful. What a perfect photo.

manillabar · June 2014

I'm so sorry to hear about your mother in law! You are right in saying the most important thing is that the two of you are married now; you have each other to lean on as husband and wife. I will be praying for God's continued comfort, peace, and encouragement for you and your whole family.

And that is such a beautiful photo... I would totally frame that

Vivandiere8 · June 2014

Tears came to my eyes reading your post, but I am so happy with the way you have responded to your husband in this hard time. You are blessed to be together. I know your wedding wasn't as you planned, but I am still so happy for you that you are now married, and so I say congratulations! You two will be in my prayers.

I hope brides who are going to cry that their wedding was "ruined" by a ripped veil, pregnant bridesmaid, or a flowergirl with her finger up her nose will read this and think a second about what's really important, and what real love and marriage is about.

Megalega14 · June 2014

Sending big hugs

ohannabelle · June 2014

I am so terribly terribly sorry, and also so grateful that you have each other. You are starting life together with a much deeper understanding and perspective of "better and worse" than most people do, and I hope that many many better times are coming for both of you. The picture is beautiful. All my best wishes for your future.

kmmssg · June 2014

The trials and heartache you have both been through so early in life should not be faced by anyone. Your challenges in your story are an example of "for better or worse" that no one would consider possible - especially at such a young age. One might think an elderly couple might have gone through such problems throughout many years but your story is a reminder to us all that wedding vows are no joke and you'd better be ready for what comes your way.

My heart breaks for your both and you will be in my prayers as you start your healing journey. You were a stunning bride and I do hope there will be a time when you can remember your wedding day and have something bring a smile to your face.

alpacalunch · June 2014

I am so sorry for your loss. Hopefully you and your husband find peace soon.

Jen4948 · June 2014

I am so sorry for your family's loss. That was what I was hoping you wouldn't have to share.

Hugs and prayers for your husband and in-laws and best wishes for your marriage.

ladyamanuet · June 2014

LAM, so very very sorry for the loss you and your husband experienced. I can understand the difficulty you are having reconciling a joyous occasion with one that tears at your heart. It is good that you postponed the honeymoon - I would honestly wait until you and your husband are further out of the grieving process before going. And I agree with PP, grief counseling is something I highly recommend, especially because it sounds like you and your husband are the rock that everyone else is looking to for strength.

My deepest sympathies. Your photo is beautiful - I wish you and your husband health and happiness in your life together. And healing.

Nymeru · June 2014

I'm sorry for your loss. I just have no words. I can't imagine going through that.

[Deleted User] · June 2014

LAM, I was not around for the original post, but reading this update broke my heart all the same. I cannot imagine the incredible sense of loss you and your husband must be feeling. The picture that you attached touched me deeply - what a beautiful sign that everything will eventually be okay. Not just one, but three crosses - symbols of the faith that it seems that you and your husband share. My thoughts and prayers are with you as you experience this most difficult time. I am so sorry for your loss.

AprilH81 · June 2014

I'm so very sorry to hear this news, I was hoping and praying they would find her safe and sound.

Your photo is beautiful and I hope one day you can look back on your wedding and remember some good things as well.

wrigleyville · June 2014

I'm so sorry to hear this.

That picture is absolutely gorgeous. I agree that you should have it framed.

Also, I know your dress gives you bad memories right now, but I must say that it's a very pretty dress and you look beautiful in it.

LAM524 · June 2014

Thank you everyone. Your words do give me comfort. I pray that in time..in hope..through prayer I will reconcile (and separate) our wedding day as a celebratory day, without emotional conflict. I think that I would like to renew our vows for our 1st anniversary (I believe you replace a bad event with a good one...bad memory with a good one) and have a celebration party with family & close friends. I want to be in the moment with him. I had the opportunity but not the moment. He actually said, with a celebratory attitude, we should renew our vows every year.

The medical examiner has issued the date of death May 20th @ 9:23 am, the day/time they found her...which was 4 days before our wedding. People (friends) have asked us how we feel about that "anniversary" being so close to our wedding anniversary. Right now, I can tell you that I hate it! Who knows how I will feel in time. My husband said that he will never recognize May 20th as her date/time of death because the day she went missing, April 28th, is the day she took her life. We know this. It just took some time to find her body. So, for him he doesnt see it as a possible issue/problem. He said we arent sharing our anniversary with that anniversary. I dont know if it will be that easy for him/us although I do agree, she didnt die May 20th..thats just "official" protocol. Actually, It may be easy to dismiss the 20th, I do it now. I automatically recognize the 28th so maybe he is right. Sat will be 2 months and we havent even cremated her yet!

Bad day for us today. We've hardly spoken. So not "us." We do this and I dont know why. No arguments/fights/conflicts...we just dont talk. Maybe its just us "being" and internally dealing. Something like this can change someone permanently. I know he struggles with the fact that she waited for him to go out of town and purposely left when she did, knowing when he was due to return (she didnt want him to find her). Logically he knows better but emotionally...well Im sure you all know how our head and heart can conflict. He has moments of guilt knowing he "was golfing while she was dying."

If I may ask, please continue to pray for him, us, the family. Especially my husband. Satan is just waiting to dance and celebrate my husbands fall. He/we have to rise above this and continue to be faithful....live happy, fulfilling lives. We cant let this darkness keep a hold of us and pull us down. Please.

Lizzieyounce · June 2014

If God is with us, LAM, who can be against us? Satan is powerless against the prayers of His children, and I shall certainly be one of those children lifting all of you up in my prayers.

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kmmssg · June 2014

LAM my faith leads me to agree that Satan is just waiting and watching to celebrate your and your husband's fall. I will be praying for you daily that He wraps you in His arms and carries you through this. Many hugs and prayers for your both.

jenna8984 · June 2014

I'm so very sorry for your loss. That is not the update I was hoping for but congratulations on your marriage and you guys are very lucky to have each other during this terrible time.

IrishPirate60 · June 2014

My condolences to you and your family. What a hard event to live through and even harder to understand. These pages of notes here--maybe print them out and consider them cards to bring you solace and comfort in the months to come.

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