BF is making me a little nuts.
We have discussed timeline and HE said by the end of the year we will be engaged. We looked at rings. Ring is on order. I know this because the jeweler accidentally called me and left me a voicemail. BF was none too happy about that . . . . but he called and bitched at the jeweler and they gave him an "Oh shit, we messed up" discount.
Anyway - knowing that the ring is on order for sure is making my patience pants a little tight to say the least.
Then the other day I get this text from BF at the end of my shift - "I have a nice surprise for you when you get home"
Now -
1. If it's the ring, I"ll be pissed you gave me a heads up.
2. If it's NOT the ring, I'll be annoyed because I know its imminent at this point but - OMG WAITING SUCKS.
{Even before knowing what it was - I would have preferred #2 - because at this point, I picked out the ring, we have discussed by the end of the year. . . . SO - I would like to be surprised as far as when/how it actually happens}
So I get home - and he asked me what my plans for the next day are (My day off) so I tell him - gym, laundry, grocery shopping, lounging around being lazy. And he says "Ok good - I'll do everything with you." (A day he normally works) I say "Oh good! It'll be nice to spend the whole day together." Then go take a shower.
Get out of the shower, get dressed, go out to the living room - and say "So was you staying home tomorrow my surprise??" BF says - "Yeah, I want to spend time with you before I"m gone all of next week." (He left on monday for a week for business, and I worked ALL day on Sunday - so we would have only had Saturday together before he was off across the country) So I told him I loved him, gave him a kiss, and I am genuinely happy we had that day to spend together all day.
BUT DAMN. You aren't helping my BSC! I have been trying really hard to NOT be a crazy person. I have been going to the gym, I have been trying new recipes, I have been organizing our Thanksgiving dinner with family. . .. I don't think HE knows I'm getting anxious, and only a good friend of mine knows I'm going slightly bonkers - but I swear, he's doing this on purpose . . . . .
So - I am really trying my best to just appreciate everything we do and not take for granted the time we have left as "just" BF/GF as opposed to being engaged.
Anyway - I guess really just a vent here - but I needed to get that out of my system!!! Thanks for being the sounding board!