I had a couple big research projects to start on, so I got all fired up this morning, set up the projects, and got to work. About 2 hours in, I find out that the person who needs the research gave me the wrong parameters, so I had to start all over again. Ok. Annoying, and really lazy of her, not to mention totally careless, but ok.
So I started over.
Then my phone starts flashing because I have an e-mail from my caterer, who I've been waiting to hear back from. Normally I would ignore it till later, but since I was annoyed about starting the project over, I decided to take a break from it and look at the email. It included some details I hadn't thought of before. So then I got caught up worrying about all these stupid details. The damn details! I hate them. For example, the caterer can set aside leftovers for FI and I to eat after the wedding, but there is no refrigeration at the venue so he asked if we could bring a cooler with ice. Of course, no big deal. But how big of a cooler? Who will bring it? Who will go buy the ice? Who will take it back to the house we're renting? What if the caterer brings the wrong color linens? Will I make them switch them out, or just let it go? What little mishaps are even worth getting upset over? What if the dessert people forget the chocolate mousse? Seriously, my neurotic imagination just completely lost control from there, and it was pretty damn tough to reign it back in. This is just how I am. Stupid senseless worrying about EVERYTHING.
Then I had checked in with a friend of mine because she still hasn't RSVPd for the bachelorette party which is in 2 weeks, and the host asked me if I could check with this friend. I've known this girl since we were 6 years old -- 22 years-- so I'm close with her entire family.
When she texts me back, she tells me she is currently at the hospital because her aunt -- who I've also known nearly my whole life-- had 2 major strokes and is in a medically induced coma, and they have no idea how much damage has been done. This is the same friend whose infant daughter was in the hospital last month with pneumonia. I can't even imagine the amount of stress and worry she and her mom have been dealing with, and now this.
So then I'm sitting at my desk crying like an idiot. I'm typically not a crier, but if someone I care about is going through something awful, and/or I'm worried about someone's life possibly being at risk, it gets me every time.
I kind of think I should just ask the host to cancel the bachelorette party. The other girl who hasn't RSVPd yet is the one whose mom is in chemo, and one girl who had RSVPd yes is the one whose mom suddenly died a couple weeks ago. I feel like it's so stupid to even ask people to attend a party when there are way bigger, more important things that they're battling right now.
So then I got back on TK. Needless to say my big research project has fallen by the wayside. I have 0 interest in working on it right now.
What things are you guys avoiding today?