Hi Everybody,
My fiancé is at Basic in Fort Sill. He has been gone for a month now. Last night I missed his phone call. I've been devastated ever since. HAs anyone else experienced this? I can't stop crying. My heart just feels broken. I know that its only temporary. I know at some point he will be able to call again. But the thought that I have to make it through another 30 days is just too much to bear. For those of you who will read this and say that I'm over reacting please just keep your comments to yourself. I truly cannot handle debating why I feel as emotional as I do. But if anyone has any words or advice that might help, please help me. Thank you all.
Re: 1 missed call
Thank you @Knottie5791268 That's the thing, I was watching my phone like a hawk the entire time he's been gone. I went to play with my god daughter for 12 minutes and boom.... missed the call. It really is devastating.
Thanks @Kyrgyzstan He called his mom. I know that he's fine it's me that's falling apart without him lol. I do try to write him a lot and that helps. But trying to go about everyday life without this person that's such a huge part of it is incredibly isolating. Things that you did everyday together just feel empty and cold without them.
I'm glad to know that for he will be ok without the phone call. It's good to have a soldier's perspective. (Also, Thank you and your husband for your service and sacrifice)
I will definitely try to be positive in my letters. I can imagine that it would be hard to deal with to hear your loved ones falling apart and you can't do anything about it. I'm just going to keep trying to put one foot in front of the other. But honestly it does feel unbearable. I'm sure that I will bear it because I have to, but it feels unbearable. That's just my reality right now. but I know it will get better. I know that its only temporary.
Thank you guys. Truly it helps to talk about it with people who have a frame of reference on the issue.
Looking forward to W-Day 7/17/15
Also, write him often. Use those letters as a journal. Tell him how much you live him but keep it up beat. Like Stan, letters got me through Basic. I lived for meal times and mail call. On days I didn't get mail, I went back and read old letters. Even just a funny card from an aunt or cousin meant the world to me. Nearly 10 years after my time in Basic, I still have every single one of those letters and cards in a box.