I think I just need a minute to vent if thats okay. Let me get out my bsc here before it leaks into real life and I find myself sitting up at 4am trawling pinterest for the perfect cutesy label for groomsmen socks or something equally stupid.
I was doing so well with this wedding. Planning was coming along without a hitch, not enjoyable exactly, but not stressworthy either. Shit was getting done, and I was at the point where I could see it all coming together. Idk what's happened in the last week or so. I'm second guessing everything we've planned - what if the food isn't good enough? What if there isn't enough of it? What if I run out of booze? (I guarantee you that would be the biggest etiquette faux pas in my family!). I have no idea what changed, but this last week or so it's really hit home that I have to make this party a good time for 100-ish people, most of which are travelling across the country to celebrate with me. And its terrifying. I know rationally that I can't please everyone, and I know that no matter what I did there would be someone who would side-eye us...but it's like rational thought flew out the window. I keep having the same wedding dreams where the bus breaks down and everyone is trapped on it, or none of the vendors turn up to the reception and there is no food or music. Ugh!
There is still 6months to go, there is no jeopardy to contend with. Plenty of time to go, budget isn't an issue, family all seem okay with everything. Did anyone else have this? It's normal, right?