She's been so excited for this wedding but she has zero respect for me. I think she cares about this wedding more for her own spotlight because she always mentions what she's going to wear and always brings the convo on what she's going to look like that day even through the dress search. I can't trust her to keep secrets. I was trying to be nice to her by bringing her to the dress appointments. I finally found my dress the other day and it's perfect and I ordered it. She knew through this whole process that I want it a secret from everyone, I reminded her so many times, I didn't want her to take pictures but she said "I won't show anyone". There was a small family gathering yesterday where she showed my grandparents and aunt and uncle and 1 or 2 others the dress -_- Also we're having a violinist for the ceremony and we decided to keep it secret, I was stupid for telling her that too (I thought maybe my mom would have some respect for my and FH's wedding) but yeah that's gonna go around. I know it's not that many people and they'll forget what it looks like by next year but I feel like she betrayed me and she is not going to change. I'm worried about who else she'll show, I'm gonna have to try and delete the photos, especially if it might reach my FH.
This wedding process is a lot of fun for us and hasn't been stressful on its own, she's the only stressful part of this and I don't know how to deal with such a stubborn narcissistic mother. She's a wildcard and I keep imagining some crazy thing she'll do the day of. She ruined my brother's graduation with a meltdown towards my dad, we begged her to stop for my brother's sake, so I'm worried she'd do the same at our wedding along with telling people everything... Christ