In January I found the worlds most amazing wedding dress online and found a store in my city that actually carried it. I set up an appointment, and along with my mom, my MOH and my FMIL, we all went so I could try it on. I loved everything about it except that it had a very low back and I worried about my back not being as pretty as I wanted it to. I figured that I had 10 months to get my back in shape and that I'd found my dress. I ended up trying on a couple of others so that I could have the whole dress trying on experience and we were all having fun so why not? I ended up trying on a dress that was the complete opposite of the one I'd come in for. The first one was sleek and lacy and fitted and backless and had straps and was so detailed! The second one was strapless with a corset back and a skirt that is big and a huge train, almost ballgown like. Both of these dresses are absolutely amazingly beautiful and I feel so lucky to be able to be at a place in my life where I can make a choice between them. For some reason, the corset back/ballgown dress ended up wowing everyone (including me) to the point where I said yes to that dress instead of the sleek backless one. I couldn't believe it but I was so happy with my choice! Fast forward 6 months, I got a phone call 2 days ago that my dress was in and I could come try it on. My mom and I went in and on the way to my dressing room, there was the original sleek backless dress on display (looking all size 0 like they do on the mannequins). I put on my ballgown dress and, granted, it still needs altered and is too big for me, but I wasn't as thrilled as I was in January. All I can think about it the one I didn't choose. I think my FI's heart would drop to his stomach if he saw me in the sleek one and I worry that he won't like the ballgown one as much as he would have the sleek one. (Not that he'll obviously ever see the sleek one. That's more of a "I'm in my head and can't stop what if-ing" thought). I feel like a terrible person for even allowing myself to be disappointed in a dress as amazing as the one I was wearing...but it's just SO different then the other one and I'm worried I made the wrong choice. That being said...it took 6 months for this one to be made and sent to the store, the wedding is in 4 months. So there's nothing I can do about it anyway! My dress is my dress. I don't even need advice because there's nothing to do and I need to realize that my dress is beautiful and there's a reason I picked it over the other one and move on and be happy! I think I just needed to be a faceless rant for a hot minute so my FI and bridesmaids won't realize how crazy I sound.