I'm looking for a large, broad audience to pose this situation to and I feel like WW can be good for that. I'm scheduled for a colposcopy in 6 weeks. I have had three previous, and none have been good experiences. All have been quite painful, and stressful, and due to this I'm experiencing a lot of stress and anxiety surrounding the appointment, so much so that I am thinking of cancelling and taking my chances.
I've spoken to my doctor, on NUMEROUS occasions, and explained my history and my fears and my apprehension. I have only been to this doctor twice, all of my previous history has been in previous offices (in different states). She has told me repeatedly to just "give it a try" and "itll be different here," and "well we have so and so here to hold your hand!"

Finally, she agreed to provide me a one time dose of xanax to take.
Here's my concern: It took a long time for my doctor to listen to me, and then she provided a one time dose of xanax, which I appreciate, but the anxiety is due to the pain experienced. I'm not drug seeking, if I were it wouldn't be from the gynos office. Do I take the xanax, hope my doctor is right, and cross my fingers? I'm afraid, sadly, if I don't have a bad, painful experience this time for whatever reason, I'm going to have to go through the same fight and possibly lose when this comes up again next year.
Re: NWR: Colposcopy and all the joy they bring
You really need to have this procedure. This is probably to rule out a serious illness. There is a reason you need to get this done. Do you really want to cancel this appointment only to finally go through with the test next year and you find out you have a serious illness that could have been detected early?
I have had many of these. It's to rule out possible pre cancerous cells. So I understand the need, but what I dont understand is, why my doctor is adamantly against prescribing me anything? Why should I have to have a bad experience so she can see my reaction for herself? I don't think that is very fair. I'm not requesting a 30 day supply of vicodin, I just want something to help keep me calm and quiet (which I have now) and pain free, for one day.
Also, how many Advil did you take? For after birth I took 3. Between your Xanax and Advil (seriously - ask now many they recommend taking OTC) I think you may be making yourself anxious.
We're in the middle of a huge opiate crisis in this country and doctors can't start prescribing stronger pain killers because patients request them.
It was low grade and not considered an opiate or narcotic, so there wasn't a concern there.
I'm lucky I've only had one, but @ellamber I'd ask if they can give you the prescription strength Motrin/Ibuprofen ahead of time along with the Xanax.
I recently read a study that while it did show that the pain level on a scale of 1-10 was an average of a 3, most participants in the study requested sedation or local anesthetic. Those who got sedation or local anesthetic then rated the pain as a 1 and stated it was a much better experience and much less stressful.
Im sorry. I think it seems like I am minimizing your pain and that isn’t my intent at all. But you do really really need to do this and your doctor is helping you get through it. Not trying to minimize at all here but I think you should give it a try with the Xanax.
I skimmed through here and didn't see any, but everyone IRL person with uterus I know who has had one, including myself, didn't feel adequately prepared by their doctors for this procedure. While I don't rate it very high on my pain scale like a broken bone or something, it was painful, shockingly so, and I cramped like a mofo afterwards.
It sounds like you're really anxious about it b/c of your past experiences. While I wish your doctor was being more understanding, they have relented and given you the Xanax. Xanax is really commonly prescribed for this very reason, and is known to work. Let it work it's magic, and it will, and you will be okay.
The doctor is not going to give you pain medications for this, period. I'd ask if you can take the prescription strength levels of Advil or Aleve (I found Aleve to be more effective for cramping generally).
I have had had this procedure. My doctor explained everything to me before and during. She made me laugh by saying it might smell like she was dying Easter eggs, but she wasn’t. I felt the pain and I did cramp some after, but it was minimal.