Just a word of warning, this post is full of biitching and whining.
I just found out that my 19 year old sister is pregnant today.
By a boy that she dated for a total of 2 weeks, who dumped her by changing his FB status to single.
She planned it.
I got the news and couldn't decided whether I should laugh, or cry. She's always been the golden child that can do no wrong (in her Mommy and Daddy's eyes), and its just...hilarious on one hand.
On the other hand, I'm heartbroken. While I have never been "officially" diagnosed, I have all the symptoms of Polycystic Ovarian Sydrome (irregular periods, unsusual hair growth, weight gain, etc), and one of my worst fears is that I can't have children. I'm 26, have never been on the pill, have had more unprotected sex than I care to admit...and over the years have had 4 miscarriages...no successful pregnancies.
FI doesn't get why it bothers me so much. He thinks that until a doctor diagnoses me with something, I should just believe that nothing is wrong.
He also thinks that I'm being childish by being jealous of her, but dammit, I am. She's never had to work for anything in her life, her Dad and Mom give her anything, they've bought her a brand new car, paid for her cosmetology degree, she's effing gorgeous, and has never had to worry about her weight....and now she gets to have a baby. All the usual hardships of single parenthood will be buffered, because whatever she can't pay for, her parents will. Mom owns a home daycare, so she'll of course watch the baby for her while she works.
I know life isn't fair, but fuckit.
It just isn't fair.
(end biitching)