I'm really nervous about trying on dresses, I've been putting it off for months. Don't get me wrong, I swoon watching Pronovias gowns, and I do know what I like and want, and what I don't. I LOVE elbow length or short sleeved gowns with sheer lace necklines, princess skirts. I'm particularly in love with the Lavens model, by Pronovias and other similar dresses I've seen.
The problem here is that I've had a very rough year, I have insulin and hormonal issues, so last year I gained almost 40 pounds. I'm 1.67 meters (I think it's 5'5-ish)... and I went from a very decent weight of 140 pounds to 177 in a few months.
I've been working on losing the weight since January, healthy diet, walking 5 miles 4-5 times a week, and I've only lost 12 pounds so far, hence the putting off the dress hunting.
I can't put this off any longer, I'm already VERY behind schedule. I'm pretty sure I'll have to pay rush fees, or buy off the rack, and it sucks. But what I'm really sad about is that I'm not excited, I'm dreading putting on a beautiful gown and hating myself on it, and watching my size 2 mom and sister's "I-told-you-so" looks.
I know I sound vain and AWish, but who doesn't want to look pretty and be confortable on her wedding day?
I'm so anxious about it that I can't sleep. This isn't supposed to be this way..:(